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[WorshipGirl2000]

After spending my morning stressing and being irritated about yesterday, I got to use more than half my day fighting off seizures only to spill my full diffuser with essential oils all over my mattress. My family is getting frustrated at my health situation and is taking it out on me, I can't leave my house alone anymore, and the people around me don't understand my seizures.

At this point I just feel like a burden to everyone around me and I want to leave the world so nobody has to suffer dealing with me. I feel like the world would be a happier place without me in it. I am trying to tell myself that I know these things aren't true, but I can't get myself to believe what I'm telling me. I'm just lost in a sea of thoughts and loneliness....

[MamaTried]

Feeling like the world would be better off without you is a huge thing.. Im sure plenty people would be just devasted without youin their lives. If they care for you in the slightest, they dont see you as a burden the way you feel they do. I am sorry they are taking out their frustrations on you. That isnt fair of them but as a mom, i gotta admit I take it out on my kids withthe tiniest things as well and i feel immediately horrible about it. Just let them know how they make you feel. I'm sure they will see it from your perspectiveand hopefully will make changes to have you not feel this way. Chin up buttercup♡

[Hidden]

Your name is worship girl. I am going to go out on a limb here and assume you believe in God. While suffering is a great evil in this life it isn’t without purpose. We might not know the purpose of your seizures or how they play into Gods plan for you. What we can say is when you are weak you are strong. When you must rely on help from others grace is brought down to you and those who help you. When people help the suffering they are helping Jesus. You aren’t a burden. You are a conduit of grace.

[WorshipGirl2000 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. That got my eyes watering :')