dont feel love

[souljapods]

hey guys. so ive had depression for several years and anxiety and derealization/depersonalization for 5 years. the derealization has made it so hard for me to feel things or form any connections with people because they just dont seem real. the weird thing is that i feel lots of empathy and compassion for people i have never met or seen before, but i dont feel things for the people im close to. i dont feel love for my family or friends. i havent felt that warm fuzzy feeling of feeling affectionate and caring toward someone in a long time. i felt it once in a dream and it was such a relief. im so tired of feeling numb and not being able to love the people i know im supposed to love. they just dont seem like real people to me, its hard to explain. does anyone else feel this way?

[Kat63]

I know that depression dulls everything, like spraying dust over gold.

[shoppaholicsue]

Hi,

I can't say i feel, or have felt, that way. have you explained this to a healthcare professional? They may see this more often and have specific meds, or treatment, for that. It seems like your outlook is almost like you're stuck in a playstation game. Could it perhaps be PTSD. Your name appears to suggest military background too.

Sue