Depression....?

[thatnerdyguy]

Hello. I'm not sure if anyone will read this, but maybe it'll help just to talk about it.

I'm not exactly sure what I would classify my form of depression as. I don't a proper diagnosis, and I'm not claiming to be any more or less depressed that anyone else.

Here's the story...

About 6 months ago, my relationship of nearly three years(only a couple months away from the three year anniversary) ended abruptly. It broke my heart. I moved away from my home and family to be with her; left everything and everyone I loved behind back in 2015. She cheated on me sometime around April last year, and it didn't come to light til September. I thought I was with someone I loved, and someone I could trust. Now, almost 6 months later; I still think of it almost everyday. I don't want a relationship, I hardly even want friends. Not because I can't move on, but because I can't bare the idea of being hurt again. So I just go through the minimal verses of life; sleep, work, go home. I have my own hobbies that keep me moderately happy, but I limit myself of interactions with others. I feel like a pathetic shell of my former self, and each day it becomes harder to find my smile; each day I have less pep in my step.

I dunno what I'm looking for out of this. If anyone understands. I'm sure I'm not alone in this type of situation, but.. I'm just so sick and tired of being sick and tired.

[kkat37]

So sorry you were hurt. Don’t go out looking for another relationship but just enjoy the company of a friend let things happen naturally and if its meant to be it will be. Don’t miss out on something good due to the fear of being hurt because there is no guarantee it wont happen again and not giving it a try hurts to so try again. Its easier said than done I know but hope you can at least think about it.

[thatnerdyguy in reply to kkat37]

Thank you. I appreciate your kind words, and will take them to heart.

[pink83737]

I understand how you feel, you’re not alone. I’m sorry you are going through this, it’s such a traumatic experience being cheated on as you feel like you cannot trust someone like that again, it’s so hard but just know someone else will come into your life someone SO much better! Have hope, keep your head up xx

[thatnerdyguy in reply to pink83737]

Thank you very much for your kind words; I appreciate the support.

[thatnerdyguy]

Thank you. Hopefully all goes works out in your favor as well.

[Jimdubu]

I am sorry you are going through this. What you may be experiencing is grief. A relationship has died and needs to be grieved. There are five stages of grief ( I'm not going to go in depth in them but you can Google them ) 1. Denial 2. Anger 3. Bargaining 4. Depression 5. Acceptance. If these take a long time or if you feel it is over taking your life, you might consider professional counseling. here is a number for an organization that offers free counseling advise and can refer you to someone in your area. Prayers my friend. 1-855-382-5433

[suzzze]

Honestly this is basically my story too except I didn’t move away but I’ve still been suffering of its effects 4 years later and still think about it daily. And more recent relationships always get screwed bc of what the first one did:/