Tired

[Donndonn1980]

Sick of being afraid and feeling alone. Everytime I seek help I can't seem to get any and all I want is to get better and be the best me I can be. Why do I feel like ppl don't want me happy or hold all my mistakes or past against me when i only was surviving and doing what I could being homeless so many years and all. I've changed my entire life since being stable and I still battle addiction at times but I'm good to everyone and I really am active in my kids lives. It's like I'm condemned and I'm just human like everyone else. I'm an outcast but I don't want to be. I love life but I know this isn't living. The worrying is overwhelming and nobody seems to understand me. I feel so alone!!

[RedwineFL]

I know the feeling. I’m battling addiction myself and this week has been really bad. Keep moving one day at a time and share your feelings here. I find solace reading what you wrote as I feel like I’m not fighting this struggle alone. I hope you feel better.

[fauxartist]

I'ts heartbreaking when your trying so hard Donndonn and your still feeling the hits and blows of what sounds like what happened in your past. We cannot change that or live in it. If you have apologised for doing what you think or know you did that others that are upset with you about, then your going to have to let it go, it does not erase our wrongs, but it does show you tried. Who ever these people your talking about judging you etc., that's on them...get them out of your life, and if they have to be in your life, let them know you are working on being the person you want to be, which is happy with life, and for them to accept it, or leave you alone. If your clean now, and trying to work on staying clean, then you need a support system of people, not boat anchors and relics from the past. It's also not a bad idea to get into therapy to help sort things out that your feeling and why.

[Nina78]

You and everyone whi is fighting an addiction.should be proud if your self how far you have come.you will never be alone here.i know times are hard for people.hopefully oneday everyone will be happy again.

[Nina78 in reply to Nina78]

Who sorry for some of the spelling