Scaring myself

[sandzie]

Hi all, I have just joined this site to try and convince myself that number one I am not alone in this struggle and number 2 that I am able to meet others that could maybe give me advice as how to deal with these feelings.

Today was the closest I have ever come to giving up and ending it all and I am so unsure why as my life isn't that bad and yet I can't seem to shrug off this dark, negative and empty feeling.

Please help

[cdsal]

You are not alone! I can honestly say I can relate. This week has been a rough one for me as well but in all honesty things have not been that bad. I joined today looking for people who understand how I am feeling because my family simply does not understand. If you ever need to talk, reach out me!

[fauxartist]

welcome here sandzie.....many of us have been in that dark place....and your not alone. Please share some of what your going through, it helps you writing about it and getting some of the power out of the pain ...it helps us here get to know you and share our stuff too. Please read some others posts and you will find out you can relate to a lot of what others are going through too. Glad your sharing and glad you found us. These are very nice people here....good group.

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Thank you for writing so openly and honestly. I have had a very bad last two days and reading these posts and everyone’s encouragement kept me going even though I feel that I am hanging on by a short thin thread.

[tarabeth1]

Im sorry youre feeling so bad, im not much better, its 1:15 in the afternoon and i still cant get out of bed. The weight of it all is unbearable. Good luck to you.

[Hidden]

Push those feelings out of your head. Your life, even in the darkest moments is heading for newness. As my therapist says, it is how you handle the bad moments, not that you have them. I know that was said to me but I assume everyone can apply it. Even if the bad moments are just in your thoughts. Maybe something is missing from your life. For me it was a companion who I could share my hopes, dreams, mistakes, struggles with. Even though I was married the entire time I was suffering. Divorced and someone different in my life, but I still have those difficult, stressful, bewildering times. But I always remember, this too will past. My life if not what I want it to be, can be what I want it to be.