Scared and giving up

[Anxiety13]

My Anxiety has been really bad the past couple months I'm loosing hope that things will ever get better and hope in myself. I have no support and it's just terrifying going through the physical part of it I constantly think I'm sick and dying and i just cant help but think otherwise. I just want to be normal i want to be healthy and happy. I'm sorry for venting on here i just honestly feel lost and alone.

[kmr1975]

You are not alone! You pretty much described my situation as well. Perhaps we can be helpful to each other, if you would be interested?

Don't apologize for venting, that's why we have this support community. I look forward to hearing back from you. If you prefer, you can chat with me in the personal chat, I believe it does not get posted on the boards.

[Anxiety13 in reply to kmr1975]

It's hard dealing with Anxiety every part of it is terryfing thank you so much for the quick response it's always comforting hearing from some one that can relate I'm sorry that ur going through the same. And yes i eould i that

[kmr1975 in reply to Anxiety13]

I started getting early morning anxiety attacks two years ago when my daughter moved to Alaska to live with her dad and attend university. However, they increased when my son decided to go live with his dad as well and be with his sister. As he is 16, I agreed, but it killed me. Since then (last June), I went steadily downhill having multiple anxiety attacks a day and even having some in the middle of the night that wake me. When I was working, it helped to keep my mind off things, but I lost my job in December. I pretty much began my breakdown on Christmas day when it hit me hard that I didn't have two of my kids with me for the holiday. Since then, the attacks increased an I continued to get deeper into a depression where I believe I have finally hit hard on the bottom level of a severe depression. Over the past 3 weeks I stopped talking to anyone other than my husband; I secluded myself in my room and for some reason I'm terrified to leave my room for any length of time. I have more details on why I'm scared to deal with what's outside my room, but I perhaps we can talk about that in a while. I wanted to give you an idea how I can admit that you are not alone and now I know that I'm not alone feeling this way. You understand?

My anxiety attacks feel like I'm going to have a heart attack, and as if an elephant is sitting on my chest. I begin to feel like I cannot breath, my upper body feels like its on fire and then I become very sick to my stomach to a point where I end of vomiting.

Is this by chance how you feel? Are your symptoms different?

[Anxiety13 in reply to kmr1975]

I also have had anxiety attacks that wake me up at night i have a really hard time sleeping and feel tired all the time. I've actually lost a job because of my severe anxiety and panik attacks I'm so mad at myself for the things I've allowed anxiety to take from me. That's Exactly how i been I'm scared of even leaving my house when i go out i get panik attacks and its just scary i hate who I've become because of this. It really does all make sence it sucks feeling like no one understands you. That's exactly how i feel i like my heart is just gonna stop n i feel naseous and extremly scared my mind starts to play tricks on me it's terryfing to say the least

[Ccb198]

I've been (and sometimes still do) get in the same exact mindset. I throw up almost daily due to nerves, it SUCKs. I've lost 60 lbs due to loss of appetite. But ya know what? I'm going to keep fighting for my sanity. I'm worth it and so are you. I cry, puke and have even passed out and hit my head. It is a tough fight, but everyday I feel I'm getting better. I haven't puked since Friday and I'll take that as a win.

Keep fighting and please reach out to me if you need to. People like us need to know we're not alone.

[kmr1975 in reply to Ccb198]

Wow! I wish I could have your mindset. For me its great in theory, but when it comes for me to act on my fight against this, I end up submitting to major anxiety.

[Ccb198 in reply to kmr1975]

I know and frankly right now I'm in a completely dif mindset than when I wrote that and frankly might throw up. Im by no means better, but I gotta try.

[Anxiety13 in reply to Ccb198]

It's the worst feeling ever honestly. That's a great way to think of it fight for our sanity. It feels nearly impossible right now and i know it's not gonna be easy.I'm just hoping to get there.

I'm sorry to hear about that it's crazy and scary all the physical damage that Anxiety does.

It is always nice to feel like you're not alone and understood.thanks for the reply. And may we try our hardest to win this fight

[Tcbabe]

Understand how you are feeling going through a tuff time myself .

Yes it would nice to chat with someone to help each other out.

Not sure how to do the chat with you only thing yet new here. All try

To see how it works . Feel free to chat with me anytime

[Anxiety13 in reply to Tcbabe]

Thank you fir the reply i just wish it wasn't this hard it's affect on me scares me and it's only gotten worse. I just want it to go away I'm tired of being scared about everything and just waiting for the next panic attack

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It will get better but you need to find help. Do you have a primary care doctor? Medication, therapy, meditation... many people on this forum have been struggling with debilitating anxiety, so you’ll find many suggestions and a lot of support here.

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[tiredbbygirl]

i have gone through the same thing youre describing and im so sorry i know how much it truly sucks, my advice is that if you have access to therapy utilize it and getting prescribed meds has been a blessing for my anxiety. please please dont lose hope and never be sorry for venting thats why we're here

[Smazzy]

I am sorry that you are going through that I can totally relate it is hard and you feel lost and stuck and it's especially worse when you have no one to talk to. I suggest going to therapy or even going to a therapy group those have been very helpful and it's nice to see that you are not alone. I have hope for you stay strong ❤

[gerrerd]

Your not alone there,s always some one listening things can get better. Ray

[Anxiety13]

Thanks everyone for the support it was much needed...

[gerrerd]

I am here your never alone, Just a heart beat away.

[Agora1 in reply to gerrerd]

Your responses and posts are so comforting gerrerd. I think if we all had someone like you in our lives who were there for us as you are, we might all feel less anxious. Thank you for being you x

[gerrerd]

Im still singing . When you need love open your heart and ill be love, i,m just heart beat away.