Done it

[anniebooty]

not proud of myself but what can i do it felt good i felt some of the pain flowing away. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME ?????

[Hidden]

Hi

You're struggling with difficult emotions. Can you write about them? I find that helpful sometimes.

Suex

[anniebooty in reply to Hidden]

Hi sue

I do actually write an dairy on a day to day bases it does help as well for me. To get stuff of my chest i guess its a good thing because i don't really share my feeling with other people

Anna xx

[Hidden]

Hi

Yes writing does help doesn't it. I found writing helped for a long time but gradually then it became more important to write them to someone in particular. Sharing feelings can help but not until you are ready. I wonder have you ever seen a therapist?

Suex

[anniebooty in reply to Hidden]

I got my first CBT session tomorrow I don't know if you can class her as an therapist

Anna x

[Hidden]

Hi

yes definitely, although not long term. Hope it goes well,

Suex

[anniebooty]

Hi Sue

Just to let you know it went well was suprised at myself of how truthful i was but good. Hope it all goes well for you when you have your first session and let me know how you get on

Anna xx

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Hi Anna

I'm wondering how you are finding the CBT? I hope it is offering you some skills that you are able to use.

I'm waiting for a CMHT appointment next month. I'm a trained therapist and gradually realising that the distress I continue to feel after many years of therapy is probably due to dissociation due to the sexual abuse I experienced as a child and so will be asking whether there are any trauma specialists locally, though I'm not holding my breath - some areas are better than others at offering a range of resources for mental health problems and my guess is that my area is not particularly good. I'll have to wait and see and if there isn't a specialist service then I will have to think about going privately - not cheap but at least we can afford it.

I hope you are feeling reasonably ok at the moment. Do keep in touch on the website.

Suexx

[anniebooty]

Hi sue

I finished CBT last month it was good learned different skills and learnt how feeling came about. currently working full time now so which is good occasionally i have moments where I'm stressed (not sure how to explain it but i feel I'm slipping back to my old ways of keeping everything inside me and not expressing myself).Before hand i wouldn't know why i was doing it now i know from the courses and CBT. Even though I know but still feel I'm slipping back to my old ways.

Anyhow I hope you feel ok also and thanks

Anna xx

[anniebooty in reply to anniebooty]

hope all that made sense