I have suffered depression since i was about 8 years old after i was sexually abused as a child. I spent the rest of my school years having councelling and now at 28 have finally learnt to deal with what happened to me and the horrible childhood i had.
I spent my teen years locked in my room crying and wishing i was dead. Believing the world would be better off with out me.
I take anti-depressants now after years of refusing them. My depression is mostly under control but everyonce in a while i get really down and do find myself thinking of ways to "get rid of myself"
I become very low and angry and my partner who i have been with for 12 years finds it hard to understand why i go through this. He knows all about my past but still doesn't understand why sometimes i lay on the bed and cry myself to sleep, why i sit in silence and hide away from the world not wanting to see or speak to anyone including him.
I have tried to explain myself but he doesn't understand and when ever i talk to others they seem to switch it onto their problems.
I have accepted my life as it is but looks like I'm the only one who can!
Does anyone else have this problem? If so how do you get through to them?