Just like ticcs, I’ve noticed my suppressing varies.
There are times, I am consciously suppressing and this is like a forced suppression, tiring, stressful and builds up anxiety.
I also have noticed what I personally like to call natural suppression.
When this occurs, I am not always aware I am suppressing right away and it is less tiring, stressful and anxious.
I believe some of the times I natural suppress, is due to years of forced suppressing and I now suppress automatically in certain situations and I find it hard to turn this kind of suppression off.
This suppression is not really useful now as I have learned I don’t need to suppress anymore, I am more at ease with my ticcs in public.
The other kind I believe is down to something similar to self-preservation.
It’s a bit like when you go under water you automatically hold your breath to protect your lungs.
In some situations I automatically suppress to protect myself from possible confrontational situations that I perceive may result in a bad end.
Only after other ticcers have pointed out that I am suppressing at times when I wasn’t really aware, that I started to look at myself more and notice these different suppressions.
I can see now, how my suppressing has a negative effect on my co- morbs and the long and short of it is I’m better off ticcing and learning to become more accepting of my ticcs than I am suppressing.
Suppression does have its place but I believe that’s up to the individual to decide when and where that is.
