So sorry to hear how clearly unwell you are. There are brilliant people here who will help you without a doubt.
What I pick up on in your post is the bloating and abdominal discomfort. The extreme fatigue and joint pain. And the feeling 'fat'.
You have probably missed a whole load of other observations because it all too much...
The 'fat' could be because you might have adrenal fatigue? High cortisol puts weight on us around our middle... Seen from behind you may not appear as large as you are from the front...your arms and legs will not correspond to how 'fat' you may feel around the middle- possible indication of high cortisol.
Also, poor gut health, inferior numbers of the right probiotic strains in our gut will cause problems. Inflammation, swollen abdomen, inability to digest food properly, feeling nauseous, even loss of appetite.
With a poorly populated gut biome housing bad bacteria as opposed to good ones will cause serious problems.
Our endocrine issues are not 'linear' like beads on a string. We are a complex organism and when things goes wrong with our immune system, illnesses such as Thyroid issues are not easy to isolate as so many other threads are involved. It's a multifaceted issue.
Inflammation is the body's defence when under attack. Hence our joints ache and hurt and everything else that goes with it. However, when the immune system malfunctions and inflammation present when there is no reason 'to defend'... Treating this symptom alone does not solve the issue. We need to dig deeper.
Given the fact that our first line of defence is our immune system we need to go back to source and try and fix it. 80% of our immune system is in fact it seems housed in the gut.
Therefore logically, if we help to improve our gut, we stand a chance of diminishing the inflammation, thereby improving aching joints etc...
As the Ancient Greek philosopher Hippocrates said over 2,000 years ago, with nothing more than logic and observation, "all disease starts in the gut".
So how to improve our gut health, is it possible??
Yes it is.
Daily consumption of Kefir, be it dairy based or coconut water based will provide you with billions of live probiotic cultures that will reseed you gut biome.
As I am cow dairy intolerant, I make coconut water Kefir. It is a revelation. The benefits are endless.
I am also taking a month's course of Flucanazole to combat Candida albicans.
In three months I have gone down by 3 holes on my belt. I am not on a diet. It is the Kefir repopulating my gut biome, replacing the bad bugs such as Candida.
I forget the exact stats, but Candida can weigh an enormous amount in the body accounting for a large swollen abdomen which to the those that do not know will appear as 'fat' when we are not!
Clearly you have a lot going on. There is no single pill that will make it all better- it's so much more complicated that that.
Attempt to repair your gut. Make your own Kefir. Once your gut improves it will uptake more vitamins from your food...
Keep all your required vitamin uptake robust, don't let borderline blood test results interpreted by your GP tell you that 'you are fine'. Aim for the upper end of the guidelines.
Sodium monosulphite a preservative is even used on shrimp. It gets used in Prosecco, red wines and balsamic.
Organic wine production and organic balsamic vinegar does not include the harmful sulphites, but because of this the producers expect to have much higher corkage levels and thus make losses. Big commercial entities to avoid corkage loss use these nasty sulphites thus keeping costs down and making maximum profit.
By reading what you have written I can tell that you are not ugly! You may laugh at me for saying so, but I know that you are not! You are a sensitive, expressive and open person who has asked for help, this makes you beautiful. You are simply in a difficult place on this journey at this moment in time as you deal with this condition.
Our world is becoming ever more challenged and poisoned with chemicals and pesticides. Endocrine issues are an epidemic. You are not alone. You have come to the right place for help.
One of the first steps us to help reseed you gut biome. Kefir will help.
I have spare activated kefir grains if you would like some. I can email you full instructions.
Poppy the 🐈