Hi my names Rachael and I have been suffering from on overactive thyroid for most of my teenage years since about the age of 14 (I'm 18 now) I've always suffered with tiredness from the very beginning and as a result I missed a very large percent of my attendance in the last two years of high school and have struggled emensly to wake up on mornings.
My thyroid has relapsed three times since then, my memory has also suffered as I feel like the last years of my life are more of a daze rather that somthing that's actually happend.
I'm currently on 40mg Carbimazole and it's only been two weeks so far but I don't feel that much better. The next step after this is radioactive iodine. Before this I was having extremely bad palpitations to the point where it was scaring me, shaking, insomnia, constantly tired, itchin(from dry skin), very bad anxiety/ dark thoughts and an overal judgemental attitude towards myself. I constantly overthink every situation And I really can't seem to switch my brain off and it's making it almost unbearable. It feels like Im constantly arguing with myself.
When I'm not at college or work I'm in my bed not nessesarly asleep but just because of a giant lack of motivation for life in general. Im sure that if I had none of these resposabilities I would sleep my life away. I also think that soe thins that have happend in my life have contributed to this 'depression'.
At this time in my life I only have a measly L1 English and have been struggling to get the bare minimum all these years. I can't even talk to anyone about how feel because I just can't explain in words or because I'm too anxious.
I'm sorry if this is too long but I've been thinking about posting for a while but just haven't.
Thankyou for taking the time to read this❤️