i post too much but i have to let it out.At first i was happy that i didn't have to live with having nodules on my throat.I dont even care about the scar.As time goes by i feel depressed.i cannot control my emotions like before.its only 2 months and i m sick of taking levo every morning.(And i feel stupid because people here have been taking levo for years).I have to check everyday to remember if i have taken the right dose.4 days 100 and 3 days 50.
the fact that i have to take a pill for the rest of my life now scares me!it makes me feel like i m sick.i can't focus.
i m tired of feeling fatigue.I m tired of have to take blood tests until my hormones get imbalanced.I feel like guinea pig!Do the doctors really know what they are doing? i go through hell when i was taking carbimazole!I suffered with weight gain....extreme hair loss.i was feeling tired and fatigue all the time.And now i have to go through all of this AGAIN!i m 29 i want to be pregnant and i want so many things...i feel like 50.
i feel like i have lost my self since the day i was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism and nodules...then the surgery..and people say its nothing there more important health issues.i should feel good.it ruined my life now i m afraid that it will ruin my marriage.
and i can handle all the problems but i cannot stand the weight gain and the hair loss and the fact that i cannot conceive because my hormones aren't balanced.
i m so emotionally ready to give up