ist behind this torturous body & mind
Longing to be well , happy, and pain free
Wanting so much to break free from my shackles of destructive thoughts
A gilimpse of hope beckons me slowly to it , I grasp it , it shatters once again into a hundred thousand tiny pieces.
Exhaustion and despair
Confused and bewildered at Health Professionals pushing me away .
Why won't they listen .. Why are they critical when I ask for tests
I want to recover ..
She replies " you need to accept you might not get better"
They think it's all in my mind ..
How foolish of them these extremely intelligent beings being dismissive of patients .. Me thinking how can they ever help anyone when the haven't a clue about their patients ., what hope is there
But I refuse to give up
I want what's best for me and others ..
I carry on regardless .. Through the dense fog of my mind trying to connect with my vocal chords .. To let myself be understood ..
And so it continues