I went to see my psychiatrist and told him about my symptoms from my thyroid condition and feel like I am going nuts! I said to him I am getting more and more moody, I am lacking energy to function and have been for years, I am unable to cook, clean, look after myself properly as I am constantly far too exhausted to function. I am unable to concentrate at college and I have failed a couple assessments and I have wasted good money on this course! I am at breaking point, my friendships are suffering, I lost my serious relationship over this illness and right now I am unable cope with anything. I have made an appointment with my dentist and looking to get my amalgam fillings removed to see if there would be any improvement with my chronic fatigue symptoms and I am hoping my autoimmune myxedema will be reversed and I am hoping my thyroid will function back to normal.
I am currently taking 80mg of t3 only just now. I have tried pig and saw some improvement but my thyroid levels were constantly low, levothyroxine is crap and never done me any purpose and i was puffy and still experiencing symptoms and my t4 was high all the time and t3 was low all the time. I tried t4/t3 combo and I was still feeling like crap and my t3 was always at the low range and my t4 was at the low range of normal. Now I am on t3 only and My t3 levels are high and my t4 levels are constantly below the normal range and very very low!
I am taking my methyl b12 5000mg, I am taking vitamin b complex from holland and barrat, I am also taking magnesium citrate, organic virgin coconut oil, 40,000 i.u of vitamin D a day, Vitamin C with zinc effervescent tablets from tesco 1000mg which I have got for a pound, Omega 3 6 and 9 oils. I have been taking vitamin E 5000 I.U, Cider vinegar x2 a day
I am still experiencing issues with not eating properly as I often have no energy to cook, I am constantly burnt out, I have a shop next door which is handy and I shop there very often and when I come home I am constantly going into flat out sleep mode and remain bedridden for days....
I am getting sick of this way of living!!! My doctor wants to help but feels powerless, the psychiatrist was like " i will keep you on my books for just now but will see you in 2 months time!" I was like em hello!!! I dont think I will ever get better!!!!!
I have been diagnosed as having bipolar affective disorder with borderline personality disorder and my psychiatrist and psychiatric nurses are soooo annnoyed with me going on about my thyroid symptoms.
I am constantly all over the place, i am very chaotic and I tried to explain to them that most of the chaos is from my thyroid condition not just from the bipolar condition itself. its all going on deaf ears right now! So it feels like to me!!!
I am getting nipped at by my close friends who are like " you always never have energy to do anything! your always lazy and doing nothing to sort yourself out....I get family teliling me your 30 now, your life is almost over and your not even working and you have not even bothered your backside to find a job! allalllllaala its like go away ( to put it mildly) I need my energy and strength back in order to get my life back on track and to get a job - although under this climate the choices of employment for someone with very few qualifications or non at all is very limited!
I really do feel like killing myself!!!! I am all over the place!!! I can't sustain friendships, I am no longer as attractive as I used to be when I had my slim size 12/14 figure and i am now a whopping size 22 and look like I have came out of a boxers ring all the time as I look completely done in all the time!! Before I had modelling agencies from FHM to babestation contacting me to do modelling shoots, I have been offered to do modelling shoots for calenders in Poland and I have been offered opportunities to do beauty pageants for miss earth, miss scotland,etc. Before I was a very active girl doing kick boxing, tae kwon do, pole dancing and just constantly partying a lot with my friends. I was very energetic too.
Now I have turned into a monster I dont even recognize myself!! I feel like every day is a constant struggle and every day I am closer to death - I constantly get this feeling of slowness and unable to focus on the future and constantly wondering if I will ever live another few years because I just feel like I am dying. Its a horrible feeling.
I have made an appointment with a psychologist who is going to help me with some talking therapies and some schematic therapy too.
I also got numbness in my feet from new year and although its slightly calmed down, it is still there.
Someone please please help me!!!!! I really am suffering a lot!!!!
Does anyone experience constantly feeling bed ridden? unable to cook, clean , bath or anything because you just simply feel constantly pooped out!!