Hello, this is a completely embarrassing topic in my opinion that I am about to discuss however, I really do need help.
I've had constipation ever since I was young, back then I didn't think much about it. But when I was around 12 years old I used to have difficulty going to the toilet and I used to feel an immense amount of pain when relieving myself. At bedtime when I used to try to sleep I couldn't as the area where you relieve yourself used to be in a tremendous amount of pain(trying not to sound too disgusting right now). My mum took me to the doctors to get a check up and I discovered that every time I went to the toilet I had developed cuts in the area from trying so hard to pass stool.
Later on, I was given some cream and a few years later I did not feel as much pain however, i still had difficulty going to the toilet.
I was them prescribed some laxative powders I could mix in juice or water to drink. I really didn't take them as regularly since I hated the taste. My mum later went to her home country on holiday and she brought back some laxative drops that were highly recommended by relatives.
These drops work till this day and they help to relieve me without as much pain today. However, I do not want to take these drops forever as once they finish I would have to wait to travel and buy some more.
Apart from this whenever I am constipated I get horrible lower stomach pain near the right-hand side and also horrible upper stomach pain. Due to this reason I consulted a doctor who diagnosed this pain as constipation as a lot of people thought it was appendix or kidney pain. The doctor prescribed a syrup for this problem which I can again not take as whenever I manage to swallow the disgusting thick syrup it usually comes back up.
Aside from this, I haven't been able to go the toilet for over a week unless I use the drops. The maximum dosage for these drops for over 14 is 10 drops a day. And since I am currently 16 I take 10 or sometimes even more if I am in greater pain and need to go to the toilet quickly.
I took these drops yesterday, however, I am afraid to go to the toilet because of the pain and also because I'm scared to block the toilet. As extremely embarrassing as this is, it has happened many times in the past and is not very nice.
So now you've very kindly listened or in this case, read my very embarrassing life of enduring constipation, is there any help or advice anyone can offer?