Hi, I joined HealthUnlocked 3 years ago and up until now I haven't written a thing,what a waste of a great resource!
Having read some of the wonderful,kind words of support people post,I thought it's time to say hello.
I'm a 58 year old Grandmother of one,Mum to two and a wife to my wonderful 3rd husband.
I never realised,in my youth, how much my weight would affect my life in later life. I used to tell the world I was happy being fat - I felt fairly healthy and right up to my early 30's I continued to expand,at my heaviest I was 26 stone. Then I lost my Dad in an accident and it made me re-examine my life.
I lost 8 stone and I felt great. I'm an emotional eater and life became difficult so I'm ashamed to say I went back up to 22 stone.
By the time I got to my late 40's I must have tried many diets and I stayed around 19 stone for years. Then came the Menopause,4 years ago and my life began falling apart.
Gradually, my mobility has declined because of terrible pain in both knees. Osteoarthritis in both,also in my neck and lower back. Fatty Liver Disease,Gall Stones, and a history of DVT in both legs.
The combination of ailments means I take medication,this means I cannot take anti inflammatory meds. GP's won't let me take anything stronger than Zapain,which doesn't seem to do anything. I take Amitriptyline to help me at night, but I am now suffering from Anxiety and Depression as well.
My family are great and try to help but I'm so angry with myself because I didn't keep up with physio exercises once I was discharged and now the pain is excruciating,so I comfort eat and I'm gaining weight so the pain gets worse. I'm now just under 22 stone.
I feel wretched and I just don't know how to break the cycle.
Sorry to go on and on x