I have had a lot of personal issues going on over the past few months (aside from the disease) that has caused me a lot of stress and anxiety. My husband has been a big help and I have done my best to rest and not let things overwhelm me. But now I am stumped about what to do.
As those of you who know me are aware, my husband is American. He wants to plan a trip for us to go back to Montana to visit our family in September. I've not been since 2012 and he hasn't seen them in about three years. One minute I feel like I want to go, but then I feel that he would be better off going alone. I just don't really know what to do. I know that if I don't go I will regret it, and if I do go I might worry about my dad and brothers and if they will be alright without me. My dad is widowed and both my brothers have learning disabilities and autism, so my dad relies on me and my husband for help and support, especially for my middle brother, who still lives at home with him. I think my dad would manage if I went for just a week or 10 days, and if I let social services and others know in case something comes up.
I also feel like I owe it to my husband to go. One of his sisters died recently, and there have been other serious issues going on over there too. What should I do? I just feel so undecided and torn. Oh, and I hate long haul flights!
Thanks for listening to my ramblings!