I am not proud or wanting to ask this it take. Me a while to ask this Q. as i am 19 years old I struggle to just walk up my stairs without getting out of breath, I used to be a professional footballer and this has ended my dream. I have just had a little girl (4 months)who I am praying I can see grow up. I would love to be able to have that day which I do wish will come that I can run down the end of the garden with her and be a great dad. I keep trying to hold jobs down but I get tired so quickly and have so many hosp appointments they just think I am lazy and keep slacking off which no body seems to understand. I brought a house with my girlfriend who I really want to Marry but I seem to be lossing every thing. She does seem to understand what is going on and she does help me out massively but it's causing stress with me feeling like I am a bum and am doin nothing with my life. I am loosing weight and my body is changing quickly I feel ugly and i feel like my daughter and her deserv better my life is falling apart and I carnt do anything about it. Sorry to be going on and on but no one else understands. Can anyone help me with Anserws for what to do.