I used this site last December when I attempted to quit cold turkey. I got through about 3 weeks, but then relapsed at Christmas time and went full throttle back into smoking. It seemed like it got even worse. I began regularly having 3 cigarettes before I even began work at 9 am. One when i woke up with coffee, one during the commute, and one when i got to work with that coffee.
That lifestyle is objectively not nice. Its unkind to your body and your mind. How can I question why I struggle with anxiety and low moods when the first things I do to my body is pump it with toxins and stimulants...
I left the UK a couple of months ago and used it as an opportunity to quit smoking. New city - new me right? I used champix. It worked well for about 6 weeks. You have to still do the work though, it is hard. But then I realised that the champix was sneaking up on my psyche. My anxiety went through the roof and my mood in general became very low. I became paranoid, jealous, angry - and it doesn't mix well with booze. It can be difficult to recognise when champix is affecting you, because it creates such subtle changes in the mind. And I don't blame champix for everything bad that I was going through, but I know it made things worse. So I came off champix for a week now, and my mood is already brighter. No I'm not the happiest person in the word, but I am more balanced. I can rationalise my thoughts a bit more... so be weary anyone on Champix - it can work it helped me go 6 weeks, but it also can be quite destructive if you don't watch closely. I don't fully on regret it, but I don't ever want to go through it again.
I have now decided to quit drinking for a while as well, as another personal challenge, and to aid with the continuation of quitting smoking (they really love each other those two monsters).
Its strange to be this new version of myself, one that meditates and runs instead of drinking wine and smokes - but its definitely a stronger person. Its nice to be someone that I would look up to and I remind myself of that whenever I feel cravings.
I went running yesterday and today and for the first time in my life jogging was easy. It was nowhere near as hard as it was before - and thats not just because of the physical benefits that quitting smoking gives you - it is as much the psychological. To conquer such an addiction gives you strength to address all your destructive patterns. It sparks a cycle of positivity and wanting to be good to yourself.
So if anyone is struggling its worth it - it really is. Its more then just stopping smoking, it unlocking a world of positivity that you deny yourself when you engage in a self destructive habit on a daily, and often hourly, basis.
Thanks for reading.
(2 months no smoking yesterday).