ONE year and 170 days ago I was a smoker. In that time, my life has completely changed for the better. I no longer feel chained to addiction. I feel less anxiety. I can run. I don't fear traveling. I don't fear hanging out or being stuck in a car with my non-smoking friends. I am not embarrassed of the way I smell. I don't miss out on moments because I am outside alone while everyone is inside having a great time. I became a mother in the past year and a half. I don't have to worry about my daughter being exposed to second hand smoke. I never have to freak out about being down to my last cigarette or not being able to find a lighter. Becoming a non-smoker has opened up so much time in my life. I am overall happier and more relaxed. I don't miss it. I used to always be afraid to quit smoking because I thought I would spend the rest of my life missing smoking but I truly don't. My life is better now. I am happier. My relationships are better. I have more money. I am in better shape. I look better, feel better, smell better.
I never thought I would be at this point in my life. I smoked 1+ pack a day for 17 years. I am finally free of it. I know how difficult it may seem to initally quit, I know the back and forth your mind puts you through. I just wanted to stop in here and tell you guys to stick with it. There is light at the end of the tunnel and you TRULY will be so much happier without it in your life. Smoking never did a thing for me. All it did was take from me. Cutting it out of my life was the best decision I have ever made for myself.
If you need help getting into the right mindset (and I believe that is the most important part of this), you can pick up a book by Allen Carr, easyway to quit smoking. It really helped put things in perspective for me.