Sitting waiting for marsden hospital check up... Found a park... Yet again I'm struggling to hold back the tears... But at lest the pigeons don't care!!.., I look at the poor people who have a bad diagnosis and scold myself! I have lipomas not the big c... What right have I to feel sorry for myself.... It's like waves...it's like my mind is purposefully digging deep to make me sad so I'll give in! I'm NOT GOING TO!!!!! Just NEED TO FIND THAT SELF PITY SWITCH and turn it OFF!!! I promise I'll be positive soon x won't i??