I have found the stories and support on this site inspiring so I thought I must join, share my experience and ask for your views. It's day 6 for me CT. I am very much over the initial psychological withdrawal and am finding it OK. The physical side and some loneliness is much harder. Let me explain.
I smoked on and off for 13 years, from my late teens. A 10 Marlboro lights a day habit. Stopped completely when I was 20 until I was 26 - a girlfriend simply wouldn't have it - and then carried on again until I was 31.
At that point I was married and we wanted to start a family. My wife and I both smoked, so we went to a hypnotherapist to help us stop. I found it powerful and we both quit. Unfortunately I fell off the wagon about 9 months after that and then became a manipulative, highly stressed drug addict - the much maligned 'secret smoker.'
I've now just turned 35, have a wonderful non-smoking wife (she's never touched them since being hypnotised) and two beautiful daughters - a 2 year old and a 4 week old.
As you can appreciate, though I don't want sympathy, living as a secret smoker for the last 3 years has been horrendous. Longing for my wife to go out for the evening, only smoking at work, carrying a change of clothes, toothpaste and spray everywhere. Going days and sometimes a week without a fag due to family holidays. And so constantly facing withdrawal. In fact I have become quite accustomed to it. Hence I am not finding the initial stages right now that hard in terms of no nicotine.
I looked at my newborn over Christmas and simply thought this all must stop. Or I won't be there for any of them in the future. Also, the associated stress and anxiety of living what has become a double life has been taking it's toll.
So on the 3rd Jan I stopped. Finished for good and I am sure. No going back. I feel so free. And I feel a duty to now look after this body and hope it can recover.
Thanks for reading. I mentioned some pain. I have had constant mid/top right hand side chest pain since day 2. It is not painful, more tight and irritating. I feel it is reducing today and I think that is because I am beating the anxiety that has been smashing me since quit day. There is pain though, but I think I need to be patient and rationale for now. No hacking constant cough, bought an expected productive one every once in a while. Some sweating at night and difficulty sleeping.
I am exercising daily and consuming lots of fresh water and veg. As I said, the freedom from the habit and deceipt, it is hard to express what a blessing it is. I just need this constant chest pain to shift. Well done and good luck to you all.