Think about a cigarette.

[jillygirl]

I found this on an American web site. I must admit it applies to me and probably a lot more people.

When I think of a cigarette,

I think of the four thousand chemicals

that would rush into my mouth and

burn their way into my once healthy lungs.

I think about that nasty taste, that nasty

ring of polluted air I would create in the

space around my body. I think of the

looks of disgust given by those close by.

I think of those who politely stepped

away from me, and those who not so

politely stepped away.

When I think of a cigarette,

I think of the forty seven years

I spent enslaved to its beck and call.

I think of the lies I told myself to ensure

it’s hold on me. How I convinced myself

that it’s treacherous act was fulfilling some

need, some longing that mysteriously

never went away. I think of the twenty

times each day I held the delusion

that it was making me feel better,

and thought I was sane in the process.

When I think of a cigarette,

I think of the lengths I would go to

to get one - Late night solitary walks

to liquor stores in dangerous neighborhoods,

taking money from the children’s piggy banks,

writing checks on an account with no funds.

I think of how I convinced myself I was normal

and not a “real” junkie. How I lied to myself

constantly. I shudder at the thought. But things

are better now. I am free. I looked the demon

in his face, and saw him for the liar that he is.

When I think of a cigarette,

I no longer lust its poisonous pinion,

my senses have returned (and improved).

I smile at the recognition that I am a winner.

My sanity has returned. I am strong. I

have garnered the lessons this addiction offered.

I have unveiled the truth – I am neither

victim nor fool. In the wake of a once

destructive force, I stand victorious -

captain at the helm – punch my fists up in the air.

Rejoice in my new found freedom.

[EmJay Partner]

I'm sure many of our members can relate to this JillyGirl.

Love the frog! Ribbit

[Hidden]

and were you shorter of breath in the first few days of quitting ? that's my fear already with COPD, you see.

[nixy 27 Months Winner]

Love this x

[Hidden]

yes, a little - then had exacerbation so went worse again - which is what I was worried about - will keep on the road to quitting though - it will help in better weather when breathing is easier... in the long run, it's best to quit I know thanks

[monky Administrator 35 Months Winner in reply to Hidden]

Hi Julie

I've just sent you a comment which may help you

[monky Administrator 35 Months Winner]

Hi ya JulieKay long time no see gal

Erm I dont know whether your on a COPD help site or not, but have just found this which may help you

I hope this works

youtube.com/watch?feature=p...

pete

[Hidden in reply to monky]

thanks....synchornisity ... I saw it yesterday ! thanks again. x