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The message I've dreaded to write.

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After only 9 days on hospice care, on Thurs. May 24 ,my precious Michael changed his address and went home to God to live again in health and wholeness. Can not express my sadness and feelings of loss. My heart is broken.

He passed in peace after everyone had a chance to tell him that we would all be ok. All arrangements have been made for Thurs funeral.

I am still in shock and disbelief.

Liz. 💔

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raincitygirl

Dear Liz,

I'm so sorry to learn of Michael's passing :-( We knew it was coming: but still it's a jolt to see the post. How heartbroken you must be ...

BargiePat posted the most lovely aria by a Russian opera singer the other day, and the visuals in the video include beautiful soaring birds (eagles I think?). For me it was an image of a soul freed from PSP and CBD and returning to their essence! I hope Michael is experiencing this right now!

God bless him, and bless you through this painful grief.

Love and Hugs XXX

Anne G.

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aliciamq in reply to raincitygirl

Wishing you and yours peace🥀

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Zeberdee

I am so sorry for your loss ... no matter how prepared we think we are losing a loved is a dreadful shock ... thinking of you and sending a hug. Jxx

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Bargiepat

XXX

Patrick.

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NannaB

Oh Liz, such sad news but Michael is in a better place now, free from the horrors of PSP. May you and your family know our Lords special peace at this time and as you rebuild your life after PSP.

XxxX

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Cuttercat in reply to NannaB

NannaB

I responded to a post from 3 years ago. Please forgive me

Late night and not aware

Cuttercat

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NannaB in reply to Cuttercat

👍🏻 XxxX

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Kevin_1

Liz

I'm so sorry.

At least he is no longer suffering.

Hold his love close in your heart.

I am thinking of you at this horrible time.

Warmly

Kevin

xx

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kenh1

May the peace of the Lord be with you, we are praying for you especially on Thursday. Ken H.

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honjen43

Am so sorry that Michael has left you. You will feel numb. I will pray for you all.

Now is time to grieve. We will be here if you need us, someone to talk to who understands, or just a shoulder to cry on.

May God give you Peace.

Hugs

Jen xxx

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Brenive

Sorry for your loss, I will be thinking about you on Thursday....Brenda. .

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Allan924

Our love and lots of hugs to you and your family on this sad day

I feel for you and know it is coming but I also realise that our loved ones are no longer in pain. They are at peace. Barry and Kim ❤

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Heady

Dear Liz, I am so sorry to hear that Michael has passed away. May he rest peace, finally free from this evil disease.

Now it's your turn to look after yourself. Grief can only be done one way, YOUR WAY. Let others do everything you don't want to do. Nothing has to be done in a hurry, make desicions when you are ready. Enjoy this numb phase, it won't last forever.

We are all still here for you, holding you tight now, a shoulder to cry on, when you need it. Most of all listening to the rants that will come.

Sending big hug and much love

Lots of love

Anne

You have my deepest condolences. I am sure when he had everyone with him he was content and at peace.

Ron

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Marie_14

Dear Liz I am so sad for you and family. Losing your Michael is so painful for you. Your disbelief is common. We know it will happen but we somehow live in hope it won't be soon, even when logic tells us otherwise? You are going through a feeling of shock right now. It does make you feel numb and that helps you get through this phase.

You all have a long road of grieving ahead but that too has to be lived through. You will grieve differently but it's important that you don't try to stifle it. So right now cope day to day. Just let the numbness take you through this.

My thoughts and prayers will be with you on Thursday.

Marie x

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Yvonneandgeorge

So so sorry Michael had passed away, he is in a better place away from this horrible illness, sending you a big hug Yvonne xxxxx

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enjoysalud

I am so very sorry...........

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LindaK12

So sorry for your loss xxx

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Dickenson2

So sorry to hear your news but no more suffering. Just look after yourself now and remember all the good times Pauline x

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toyota11

So sorry, here's a Yorkshire hug. Peter.

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homesupport223

So sorry to hear of your loss,my condolences to you and your family. Michael is now no longer in pain. I pray you will experience peace and strength.

Henry

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Greens

Oh liz I am so sorry to hear your loss your words really moved me thinking of you and your family x x x

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georgeg25

Sincere condolences to you and your family for your loss. The shock will fade. The pain will never leave but it will ease. Go through it all at your pace. Grief has no time limit. God Bless you in the time ahead. Big hugs to you. 💔

So sorry for your loss.

Michael is now free of pain and the misery of PSP but rest assured he will be with you every moment of every day.

xx

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Caz49

So sorry to hear about the passing of Michael. I too lost my husband on 17th May, 2018.

After suffering so much it was a relief that he is now in a better place. We had his funeral on Friday 25th May. Up until now it has been so busy with visitors, flowers, cards and family. Tonight is my first night on my own. Although TJ hasn't been home very much lately, just knowing I'm on my own is quite daunting. I'm feeling a little lost. I'll just take a little time and brush myself off and get on with life. Missing him will be a daily thing but as the saying goes "life goes on".

I will be thinking of you on Thursday. Stay strong.

Caz49

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johns65

So sorry for your loss. Our family just went through this less than three months ago. We know what you are going through. Bless you and remember all the good memories you have made together. The suffering and pain is gone for him and that is something positive. A big hug from Minnesota. Joyce

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crab2093

sadness and sad news herald the sorrow of parting. Your loss is the freedom from pain and confusion. Our thoughts are with you, take care..... V

Hi Liz,

Thanks for sharing.

Deep and exciting message.

A big hug.

Luis

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margh2468

Loving thoughts are with you, it is a time I absolutely dread, but know is coming Hugs Marg H Howlong N.S.w. Australia

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DeDeDickson

Liz, it was a wonderful gift you all gave Michael by reassuring him you would all be okay. No doubt he was at peace!

My heartfelt sympathies go out to you.

xoDorie

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Amorera01

I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s an awful disease and you will be in my prayers for peace. He is with our father and not suffering anymore.

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JantheNana

Thank you Liz for sharing your broken heart with us.I am approaching one year since my beloved Don passed away to his new home.It still seems unreal,but gradually I am remembering the good times more and more and the difficulties less.My heart is with you at this time!

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Artteach10

So sorry. My heart goes out to you. Nancyxxx

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Teeker

Hi Mickey 12345,

So sorry for your loss. condolences to you. Michael is now PSP free and is in a happy and peaceful place. May God give you the strength and comfort you need to cope during this heartbreaking time. Sending you hugs and warmest of wishes to you. Esther (Teeker)xx

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AnaBri

I'm so sorry for your loss Liz, I pray to God for Michael's soul and for you and your family to get solace in this difficult times. We all know this will be the end of our individual journeys but it's not supposed to be easier when it comes. We'll only have our memories and the peace knowing they really are better then.

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F4rn12ley

Am so sorry that Michael has died and that you are in that place of shock and disbelief. My Mum’s funeral is also on Thursday. I will think of you and your family. He is free from that awful disease now.

Love Steph xx

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ladyalone

I am so very sorry for your loss Liz, no words are going to make you feel better, but hopefully in time your pain will ease. Michael is now free of pain and sadness and is at peace in his new home. Sending you a heartfelt hug xxx

Ladyalone

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doglington

I am so sorry for your loss. We are never ready.

There will be relief that he is free of suffering but the grieving for the past is tough. My thoughts are with you all.

Lots of love from Jean xx

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costner

Liz- I am so sorry... when I last wrote, (it was only about a week ago) I know you were looking for little signs to let you know how long you would have with Mike.

It will be 4 weeks on June 2 when my sister passed. I don't cry as much as I did before, I don't think of her as gone- but rather as residing at her new address in heaven as your post has stated for Michael. There are still moments that will trigger my emotions. Just the other day I changed the duvet on my bed and saw the little stain from her nutrition drink that spilled when I was feeding her in bed. And there is a worn spot on the corner of the kitchen island where she would constantly swing her foot while sitting there. These are little 'marks' that Melissa left behind... but the biggest mark is the mark she left on my heart and all of the hearts who ever knew her. I could repair the corner of the island, or get rid of the stain, but I won't. I cherish these little 'melissa marks' in my home.

The whole is your heart is huge right now. But little by little is will be filled with memories and moments that will be so very dear to you. Sometimes you will get a visit from Michael in your dreams... this is the best! It's almost like our loved ones come down from heaven to pay us a visit in the still of the night.

Michael would want you to be brave for your children and grandchildren. I know I have my job that Melissa wants me to fulfill - being her stand-in grandmother for her grandchildren. The hospice here in Michigan has a service where they will make teddybears of a loved-ones clothing. I am going to have several bears made for christmas to give to her family along with a book I am making with photos. This project is keeping me a positive project that I am enjoying.

My deepest prayers are with you. I am not sure why but I feel connected to you - maybe its because of the name we share or your story about your the life you and Michael created with your blended family that seems like mine.

Liz

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Mikey12345 in reply to costner

Thanks for your sharing, Liz. I so relate to your description of the "Melissa marks" as there are Michael marks here even though he spent all of his most severely effected times in the nursing home. I cherish those blemishes now.

I pray you are right that he will come to me in my dreams. I want that to happen and am very open to receive it. I miss him so much and would be thrilled to see him if only in my sleep.

Yes. The hole in my heart certainly is huge. I am trying to not think about him or the loss of him as I just go to pieces. I have "cried a river" as they say and I know that is the tip of the iceberg. When my walls come down, it will be difficult to handle I'm sure.

You're right, Michael would want me to be strong. One of our grandsons asked his dad who will now be the glue who keeps our family together? I passed the word along that that will be me and I have to live up to that for Michael.

Hadn't thought about the teddy bears even though I made a number of them years ago when my sister passed. I will have to make plans to do that project again. I could inquire if our hospice offers this service, thanks.

It was nice hearing from you. Glad you can relate to me. Thanks for your kind words.

Hugs, Liz

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costner in reply to Mikey12345

Liz, Hugs back to you..... Liz

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Cuttercat

Again I write to another friend with my blessings and prayers. You both look like us, happy and enjoying each other. I am dreding the future but hope I can handle with grace like you are.

Cuttercat

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Tttp

Dear so sorry for your loss, the end of this dreaded disease, glad to here he went peacefully, such a hard time for you and your family time does heal but your Michael will always be in your heart, take care of yourself. Nettie

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Martha_k_uk

I am so sorry to hear this. I wish you much love and strength for the future.

It is 6 weeks today since my dad passed, and even though we knew it was coming nothing prepared us for facing the reality.

My love and thoughts are with you and your family at this sad sad time xx

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Mikey12345

Thanks Martha k

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Cuttercat

Just saw this and send sympathy to you. Your photo shows two loving people who geared this disease with aplomb.

Bless you. I liked the new address. Very sweet

Cuttercat

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