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Slowly losing my Nan with cbd

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Hey everyone

My nana left hospital on friday night aftee she caught a chest infection, the doctors gave my nan up to 2 weeks to live.

On Saturday early hours in the morning the nurses were adamant it was her time to go and asked my Grandad to start the morphine so we accepted and started her on the course. They thought she would pass peacefully that morning, however all yesterday and night she is still fighting with every breath. I know the nurses say she's not in pain but my God it's such a cruel way of dying. Just when they say she probably won't last until the night, I prepare myself and say my goodbyes again and she's still fighting.

It's now 5am, as I needed sleep for my boys and she is still fighting, and even opening her eyes. It's killing us all. We don't know what to do or even think. My poor poor Grandad is not in a good place,even though we went back home andhe let me chose her favourite necklace with her wedding rings on for her to wear. That was a humble moment.

Thanks for reading. Unsure what to do next xxx

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honjen43

Hello Keira. I can see from your mum's hand that she is close to the end. It is so hard to let her go. I know!

The last sense we have is our hearing. Talk to her and tell her you love her and will miss her - accept that she is dying, say your goodbyes and tell her it is all right for her to go!

I know it is hard to watch and you don't want her to be alone - but that may be what she is waiting for; to save you pain!

I hope she will be an angel in Heaven soon.

She is home where she can rest soon. And so will you all.

My thoughts are with you on this long wait. I have been there too!

Hugs

Jen xxx

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Spiralsparkle

Sending you all much strength and love as you prepare to say the hardest goodbye.

What a determined fighter she is, such courage.

Xxx

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PSomani

May god be with Nana and bless all of you

Anshuman

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Keiramurphy

She's eventually passed peacefully this morning. Absolute warrior she is. 💔

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doglington in reply to Keiramurphy

Sorry for your loss but glad she has found peace. I am in the same place.

lots of love, Jean xx

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honjen43 in reply to Keiramurphy

So the ordeal is over! Am so sorry for your loss. There is a great hole in your lives, I know. And there seems to be so much to do!

I found this period I was numb and just got on with arranging the celebration of her life, looking at photos and planning the service of remembrance.

I think it must be easier if you have all been able to plan this beforehand with her. But then it is sometimes something they consider unnecessary at the time as they can communicate well.

Your granddad will need lots of love and gentle care, as will your mum!

I know you will do all you can to be practical and helpful as that is the person you are! Take care to look after yourself too!

Each of you will face your grief with a different view. Find some counselling if and when you feel you need it.

And come back here! There is an increasing group of us who fully understand what you and your family have gone through, and we will be here if you need us!

Now is the time to grieve, and in doing so, remember the beautiful strong loving nanna, mother and wife she was, always! Your combined strengths in caring for her are a testament to your love for her.

Take care!

Big group hug from

Jen xxxxxxxxx

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Flemingc in reply to Keiramurphy

So, so sorry. I know you are all exhausted and heartbroken. Sending love and prayers for your whole family.

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F4rn12ley

So so sorry for your anguish. Some people just fight to the end. Hope it is not too long now, thoughts go out to you xxx

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Katiebow

Sorry to hear that you have lost your dear Nana after her battle CBD. It is very distressing to witness them fighting to stay alive,my mum did the very same thing before she let go. The hospice nurse said this is quite a common occurrence before they give up the battle. Be pleased for her that she no longer had to suffer the distressing symptoms of this horrible group of diseases.

Sending my love to you and your family, your grandad will needs lots of love and support to help him through his grieving.

Love kate xxx

Sorry for your loss,knowing that her family was with her when she made her final journey must of been very comforting.

Dee

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Heady

Sending big hug and much love.

Lots of love

Anne

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Marie_14

Keira I have just read your posts and I am so very sorry. Your Nanna was a fighter but I know how awful it is to watch someone fight death.

Give your Grandad and your Mum lots of love and take care of yourself too. I know how much you loved your Nanna. Your little sons will help you all get through this tough time though. Children give hope when you have none left.

Lots of love and hugs to you.

Marie x

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easterncedar

Love and peace to you and your family now. I hope you all can rest and remember your Nan as she was in happy times, and be comforted in sharing those memories with each other. Hugs all around, Sarah

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Keiramurphy

Thank you everyone. God it's hard isn't it. I'm distracting myself at the moment by preparing my eulogy for her funeral. Such a horrible disease. Her brain is being used for research and she's no longer in pain so that helps a little xx

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doglington in reply to Keiramurphy

I'm doing the same thing for Chris. Its a painful time.

big hug Keira, from Jean x

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Keiramurphy in reply to doglington

You to Jean. 💗

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