Sitting here feeling very sorry for myself! Dad being very moody tonight, didn't want me to hold his hand and simply said get off! Upset me, so much! The tears flowed, he couldn't see, because he can't move his head much and eyes don't move side to side (if you get me) so I've just sat and cried, stuffed crisps and chocolate (after dinner) and think why oh why do I bother??
I bother because I care
I care and love him
He's my dad, my dad riddled with shitty Psp
Dear god, please make this end, it's so cruel and unfair to my dad and breaking my heart!
I just want my dad to go to sleep and not wake up, to be at peace and not live this stupid uncessarry existence!! X