Please bear with me as I have a feeling this will be a long post ..
I’ve always attributed some symptoms to pms whilst growing up . For example severe sugar cravings before my period , as in I’d so much sugar , hunger , tiredness , feeling low, alone , isolated , headaches .
I’ve been taking the pill since 20 , ( am 34 now ) Dianette , then later Yasmin for acne and hormonal induced acne . Come to think of it , before this time my PMS was quite bad but I dealt with it . I guess being on the pill helped somewhat .
I’ve also been on citalopram since I was 23, for depression , but in the past year I have been questioning this . I’ve tried to come off the citalopram but am unsuccessful. I wanted to try and come off all medication so I tried to come off Yasmin the start of 2017 .
I knew it would be hard but by , August I couldn’t cope . All my symptoms worsened , including this out of mind state , not recognising myself , forgetfulness, suicidal thoughts, I’d fall asleep thinking of ways to end it and what I would write to my family , just wanting to stay in bed . I went back to my GP who said to just go back on Yasmin , she was very reluctant to discuss PMDD with me , although I had been and still keep a diary . Since starting on the Yasmin again , my suicidal thoughts have lessened and are not as bad . I still feel hopeless, lost . I get into fits of rage and lash out to those who care and sound like a crazy lady not physical but saying things in a calm way , but what I do say is crazy .
I live alone so it’s easy to just stay in . I make it into work and try to be ‘normal “ but straight then it’s home and shut the world out . I struggle to concentrate with anything , forget things , people at work laugh how bad I am . I have headaches , feel so tired and heavy . The list goes on .
My question is how what can I do to help these symptoms . I’ve been reading lots , manage sugar , eat healthy , take the pill , take citalopram, ( doctor last year said to increase the dose for 10days a month but I don’t want to take more antidepressants. Eat small meals and regularly . Increase water , take anti inflammatories. What else can I do ? Exercise may help , but how to a get myself to get up , when I just want to sleep because of my mental state and tired state . It’s like for 6days before my period I can’t control myself or head . 3 of my close friends know about this but don’t quite understand or know what to do to support , my family. Just hate this cycle of feeling so crap . Within a few days of my period coming , I’m ok . It’s mad .
Is there an actually test I can to diagnose this ? I’ve have my thyroid checked and all is fine . Any advise would be appreciated xxx