I have Peri menopause, hypothyroidism and just realized by reading online that what I thought was possible is actually pmdd. My life has been a nightmare for years and I really can't believe I haven't offed myself yet. Waiting to hear back from the doctor to see what can be done, I can't go through this not one more time : ( when I'm having an episode I cry alot, then I get angry and hateful towards everyone including God, but mostly hate myself to the core. Soon as my period starts I have to climb out of the pit I dug just to get thrown back in in a couple weeks. I hope I can get help, I'm desperate.