I've had a few difficult weeks lately,and usually i pull myself together and get my mojo back,but its not so easy in these uncertain times and we cant always be on top form,and i do beat myself up about it because normally i am a doer.
I have had a huge amount of paperwork to deal with,and its things only i can do,i cannot delegate things of a personal nature,and i am not au fait with legal jargon but i've managed rather well all things considered.
And one thing i have been struggling with is my lack of sleep,for last night i did'nt doze off until 4am and then was up again at 6am.
My mental health doctor has tried out various medications but they either give me terrible nightmares or huge weight gain,or both.
Sleep has always eluded me and i am now feeling maybe its better to be as i've always been rather than take prescribed meds and i really dont like to be dependant on anything,and i think i am one of these people who can get by on 4 hours sleep.