Hi folks, for the last few weeks I have been in a very dark place, two of my closest friends have died and I have been brutally reminded of my mortality. Yes I have still smiled and said I'm doing fine when asked, because that's what they want to hear. I really want to shout out loud "NO I'M NOT ALL-RIGHT, PLEASE COULD SOMEONE RESCUE ME?" but like the Titanic there are not enough life boats and I must sink or swim. So I'm swimming as hard as I can, but I'm so very tired.