A Head of Thoughts

Damn!

Damn it!

Scattered thoughts

Fall all around me

What?

Left,

left,

Left.

I draw a blank

and the emptiness

in my head

Seems to last

Fo r e v e r…

A small spark

Nope,

it's gone

Left,

left,

left

Round and round

I go,

Trying to get

To the

Answer

in my head

For the question

you asked

Slamming

Into doorways,

Walls appear

Out of nowhere

Unknown bruises

yellow, green

Black and blue

Left,

Left,

Left

Twitches ,

tremors,

Head nodding

and rocking

Pain,

Fear,

Anger,

Pain,

Pain,

Pain.

Distractions overwhelm

I feel inadequate

Left,

Left,

Left.

Sleepless nights

Every night

another pill

Another side effect.

Left,

Left,

Left.

Eyes shut,

Eyebrows furrowed,

finger tapping,

Google it,

I need some

Answers,

Left,

Left,

Left.

I'm goggling it.

What?

What?

Can't see that,

Eyes are

Whacked.

Starring off,

Mouth agape.

What?

Left,

Left,

Left.

Round,

and round.

Lost again,

Left,

Left,

Left.

for Wordworks2011, you go right and I'll go left.

Jupiterjane

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  • Another great one! Very moving. :-)

    Hugs, Terri

  • Indeed, but it brought back memories of my Childhood and I had to smile in fact I had to laugh.

    we used to March to

    ''Left left I had a good job and I left''

    ''Left left I had a good job and I left''

    Childhood, when you could be daft and no one bothered.

    sweet memories!

  • hi jane

    a great poem

    lol Jill

    ;-)

  • boy do I know the feeling! my face is red too because I keep claiming to be sharp so I can continue my volunteer position but I sent an email to someone thinking it was someone else with a similar name (not really--They both had a u and ended in i :( ) Then I texted someone with the same first name as the intended recipient with something very confidential. Arghh. Then I emailed some information which was sensitive, only to be conveyed in person. PD has made me more mindful physically. But my mind needs to be mindful too. Waa. Oh yeah, why did I come in this room?

  • Hi Pat,I don't know what it is with the telephone. If I need to call someone I usually have to rough out a draft of what I need to say or else I will start babbling and sound like a fool! I wish I could understand why this happens to me because when I try to explain the level of anxiety I feel when I need to phone a stranger he looks at me like I have a square head. Hold on, nope checked the mirror, head is still oval in shape!

    Jane

  • Haha. I know. Plus any kind of speaking. I'm sitting still and I start talking on the phone or person to person, and I'm rocking and waving my arms and legs like a 6 week old baby and going way off topic! ;D

  • Well, you've been very honest with us. Having PD, as most of us do, HOPE is helpful too.

    Even with all my distracting symptoms a smile is better than a frown. Thank you for your

    contributions to HealthUnlocked.

  • I used to forget what I went to the supermarket to buy so then I started making a list before I left home. Unfortunately, I usually forget to bring the list with me to the supermarket.

  • Hi Jane

    Another good one. Wish I could express my feelings in this way. I somehow knew it was a post from you before I opened it and I was not disappointed. Thanks.

    Sue

  • Diagnosed just a year ago, but with symptoms for over a decade, I'm bothered more by the mental effects (decreased ability to concentrate, lost planning ability) than the physical aches and jiggling leg. I still have to lecture at my university, and I've embarrassed myself more than once when I couldn't think of a word and was left staring at my desk.

  • BLack and blue and green all over...sounds like a Dr Suz book and I would be a perfect character in it. I bounce off of walls I never knew were there. I swear they were placed there by my dog if he wants my attention. Lucky thing blue is my color. I really liked your poem!

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