just when i thought i was becoming a little more settled and happy to be with me and myself, my husband informs me that he will be retired come july 1. tthis news should be a blessing to me , having someone around to help me and to watch over the stupid things i do that i shouldn;t be, but instead this has put me into a complete panic mode. he is not real supportive of me, i am not sure if because it scares him, but he doens't take the time to try and understand the disease or if he is being his usual self and truly believes as he tells me, i choose to be this way.
when he is home there is no down time for me , he feels i should be able to keep up the same schedule and strenght that i did 8 years ago. hey i was rifht there when it came to putting roofs on, building decks, whatever he started i was the #1 helper. i can't sit on roofs any more , i can't climb laders, ( the one word i hate using in this world is can't, ) and i have said it twice in one sentence. i still do a lot and i am so blessed and lucky that i can but i don;t know if i am up to daily downings as to not doing enough etc
no one can change my situation, but i needed to put it in typing, i had to get it out of my head.
thanks all my parkie friends for understanding and letting me vent