I'm a 56 year old married male. I was diagnosed 3 weeks ago. It started two years ago with a slight tremor in my left hand. It slowly progressed and about a year ago people said I was limping, which I ignored and thought I had back issues. The neurologist a year ago said I had essential tremors so I was happy to hear that and never thought about it again until the last few months I started profusely sweating when at conferences speaking with people, looking like I was going to pass out. I was also fatigued often and then what got me was when I went out on the dance floor and could no longer break dance, my feet just didn't go where I expected them to go and my left arm was going out of control. People at the conference said I looked like I had Parkinsons. I said, no it is just essential tremors. I then went to a movement disorders neurologist that told me I had PD.
That was the last thing I heard that day. I spiraled into total anxiety, depression, sleeplessness, stopped eating, lost 20 lbs in 3 weeks. I went on medical leave for a month recently cause I could not focus or think anymore. My wife has been great, but I wake up at 3 am every night and just stare at the ceiling, feeling sorry for myself.
That being said, yesterday I been trying to crawl out of my hole and I walked 3 miles and went to the gym. Today I walked about 1.5 miles, but still had issues getting out of bed. I was praying that this was just a nightmare that I'd wake from and it would all be over.
I guess I'm still not the acceptance stage.
I'm glad this site is here and hopefully will get enough encouragement from others to move forward and accept this diagnosis.