Today after a week of the nightly cramps and pain I asked my movement disorder Dr for help to sleep. The Botox just isn't working well any more. It has really hit me hard that my life has become about my pain and altered life instead of the fun in life. I just feel so defeated. We will go on a cruise soon and I was looking forward to it so much. We have never had a vacation like this! I have tried so hard to dovrhe things I want and need to do. I feel like taking this med is giving up.