LOSING A CLOSE FRIEND

[Bea61]

Most of us here are in physical psychological emotional pain...my school friend is lingering between life and end of life and have accepted this...but feel i can't move today and have to go to work...have no strength feel exhausted...

Bea

[ssdw1958]

Bea61 I am sorry for your friend and I hope you find the strength to go through your day. I will say a prayer 🙏🏼 for you to find the strength for today and many more I was taken off my job, because of my disability, but I am glad you have a job to go to. Just take one step at a time I know you are probably saying come on you don’t have to go to work you don’t know the pain I’m in that is so true. But you need to do this not for any one else but you I hope this helps you please don’t think bad of me

GOOD LUCK TO DAY and GOOD LUCK TO YOUR FRIEND

[Bea61 in reply to ssdw1958]

Thank you...i am also spiritual and my friend is too but not her husband and i have found it difficult at the hospice to pray with her/over her and so have done it silently...very hard trying to support everyone...my friend has an autistic son who is not coping well with his mom's situation and my heart just feels so heavy this morning..i know what you mean about staying in work...i am down to 3 days now..and i've been off until today on A/L but my body is screaming ...

I do NOT think bad about your post at all...in fact its lovely that someone was here just to read my post when i just feel so empty today..

Thank YOU😇

BEA

[ssdw1958 in reply to Bea61]

Oh Bea61 I know what you mean it feels like everything is coming at you all at once. I had to lay my Uncle to rest on Monday. Back in 2000 he had asked me to take care of his wishes. He had everything all set but now I am dealing with his personal issues. I was diagnosed in 2004 with MS so back then I had know problem now putting MS in to the mix can have it’s own problems. His health went down hill in mid January 2018 and passed on March 23,2018 I didn’t really hit me until today that he is gone I hadn’t really cried until today.

I am really sorry your going through your hard ache and pain yours and your friends. If you want to pray with your friend you should it will help you and her. I know that’s easy for me to say but you also need that special time with you.

I have a question are you in USA 🇺🇸 or in another country. Just asking because you may want to sleep if your in USA I am in the state of Massachusetts it’s supposed to be spring but it is not they are talking about snow ❄️ and I have an infusion on Friday when it’s supposed to snow.

Be strong you can do what you need to do.

[Bea61 in reply to ssdw1958]

In the UK..my thoughts are with you at this sad time..and hope you receive your infusion today and the snow stays away,,

Best wishes

Bea

[Cb1963 in reply to Bea61]

So sorry to hear about your best friend, I was in situation where I lost my uncle and father all the space of two weeks, and that's coming up to 2 years in June, and ended up in hospital myself for 10 days while waiting to bury my father at the same time, I don't feel I grieved properly and as we are all so different we react to life and death in very different ways, but looking after yourself and even if you could take some time from work could help with the physical side of things might help the stress that you are going through, I can understand how you feel, and I ended up literally running on fumes, and it's so hard to take a "break", and I'm so sorry that you are having to face up to possibly losing your best friend, and you will be exhausted, it's takes all the human inner strength to function, and your emotions will be all over the place, so don't give yourself a hard time and even though you may not be able to sleep, you will need a rest, and my thoughts are with you in this most of difficult times, take care for now, thank you.

[Bea61 in reply to Cb1963]

Thank YOU..can relate to your statement 'running on fumes' hard to maintain a healthy diet when you don't feel like/feel sick at the thought of eating...and agree our bodies take punishment and run out of fuel....and we break...and sometimes that comes much later as I experienced with my own Mom some time ago...it was some week later following her cancer death that my body turned to jelly and felt my bones become disconnected..it was truly an awful time and it took some months before i could recover fully so, am trying to take heed of my body and mind at this time..

Bless you for your post...

Bea

[hypercat54]

I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Been there myself and it is awful. Thinking of you and wishing you the best. x

[Bea61 in reply to hypercat54]

Thank YOU..and for your kind thoughts...I know we have all been there and this perhaps wasn't the appropriate Forum to post but as i said above, literally my body was screaming to stay home but my mind was saying ..get up .... of course i looked a wreck and colleagues noticed and were very supportive...

This site is a life saver and the moderators who support us ... Thank you...

Wishing you a good day today hypercat!

Bea

[hypercat54]

Thank you Bea. This sure is a good site isn't it. Don't forget to take care of yourself too my love. x

[Bea61 in reply to hypercat54]

❤️

[jeabgaff]

Your post was very moving, and I want to send sympathetic good wishes. I lost my two (then) best friends within 5 weeks of each other nearly 40 years ago - they were in their early forties as was I - and at 80 still remember how terrible I felt as my shared school years and other shared memories were just mine now. I have lots of friends now but treasure their memory and remember the pain I felt at their loss. It is a cliche but true - time is a great healer.

[Bea61 in reply to jeabgaff]

I'm still at the anger stage but thank YOU for your response,,,