Be strong and hopeful, it may not be all bad.

[Bloomin]

Just want to say a huge thank you for your supportive advice and words, and parting some of your strength to me, and at a time when some of you are are clearly battling it.

I will be specific about my recent investigations, to hopefully offer reassurance to others who may be equally experiencing the worry I had.

6 weeks ago I had an u/s which show a blocked tube, cyst on uterus and cyst on ovary. 3 weeks ago I had a CA125. Today I attended my first gynae appointment.

Pleased to say CA125 is normal. I have a hydrosalpinx and they are not sure whether cysts are cysts, polyps, fibroids or n.a other. The general thoughts are of non-urgency and that there is possible endometriosis/adhesions causing these things. I am to have a hysteroscopy to investigate further the cysts. The consultant is considering if a laparoscopy may be warranted.

Past investigations due to infertility, never informed me of endometriosis but a radiologist during a previous u/s, once said straight away, did I suffer this. I always thought my symptoms for years were that of endometriosis.

The positives today is an indication of no major concern or urgency, and I hope these continue.

My worse fear was the big 'what if'? I have gone thro' some major turmoils in my life and am regarded as a fighter and strong person. But I felt today if the 'what if' became more evident I couldn't be that strong person. I wondered why I felt this way and concluded because I wouldn't know what I was bl.....y fighting or have any control over it. The strength and spirit that some ladies on this site have clearly shown following major surgeries and treatments, is hugely admirable.

I guess an important message for both newbies and existing members is to never give up hope, to try as much as you can to focus on hope rather than the 'what ifs'. My own personal motto in life has been there is always some good, no matter how small, comes out of bad, and that is what has steered me throughout my life.

Wishing you continued strength and hope, and immense thanks to members and this very valid web support.

[gromit]

Great great news. I am one of those "waiting newbiees!" and week one not too bad week two struggling a bit. I have had constant bleeding for 7months scan showed cyst with "internal echoes" and a ca125 of 145. Although I am told unlikely to be O.C. I am constantly thinking "what if" and dont know how to stop thinking that till someone tells me "definately not!" Had one appt where consultant called away and saw a registrar who told me to come back in two weeks. Your words however do make so much sense and I agree totally with all the support offered by the amazing women on this site

Sarah xx

[wendydee]

Hi Bloomin!

Glad that things are becoming clearer. it's always the waiting game that is the hardest part of the start of this process. Keep us informed about how things are going with you, and hang on in there, Sarah! You will get through all this too

Love Wendy xx