Sitting here feeling so anxious and sick with worry, I have my first appointment tomorrow with onc after finishing treatment in September. Bloods done Monday including ca125, it feels like the waiting game all over again.
I know this is normal but was hoping I would not feel like this, last night heard a song on the radio,[ climb every mountain] from The Sound Of Music and just sobbed.
Ellsey xx
Awww Ellsey, the waiting for results is awful. I had scan results a couple of weeks ago . I'm fine now until I get in the consulting room by which time every time my husband opens his mouth I rip into him lol. He's used to it, you'd think he'd learn just to sit quietly instead of saying stupid things like 'It'll be fine'! . Anyway I'm sending you a big hug and best wishes for tomorrow. Please let us know how you get on. xx Kathy xx
Thank you Kathy I will let you all know how I get on.
Waiting does makes us feel anxious but I try and tell myself that the results are already decided and no amount of worrying is going to change it.
My best wishes for a good result. If you feel up to it, have a glass of wine and an early night.
Good luck! Helen
Hi ellsey
Know just what you mean. Very hard to concentrate on anything, other than results.
Hope everything goes well !
Take care
Judy x
Hope everything goes well for you, xx
Hi Ellsey. I know what you mean. Had my scan this Tuesday and get results 11th November. I just keep telling myself I can't change the results so no point worrying at the moment. Easier said than done. I hope you have good results tomorrow. Everything is crossed for you.🌻🍀
Wierd thing is I have not had a scan just the full bloods including ca125.
Ellsey xx
That horrid Scanxiety feeling - even if no scan is done!!! You want to be positive and hopeful however a little part of your mind seems to be able to shout louder than the larger rational part doesn't it!?! I hope you have a good meeting and good results and let us know how it goes please. We are all rooting for you Ellsey. Sending big hugs for you
Take care
Clare x
Aaaaw ellsey, sending you big hugs and praying all will be well for you. lots of love Julie xxx
Thank you Julie, we've all been to hell and back but we all just get back up.
Need to keep telling myself everything will be fine.
Ellsey xx
So many of us feel exactly the same no matter how many times you tell yourself not to worry... it will be fine.,. I can't change things.... you still build yourself up into a big ball of nerves ... I went last week for my results I put on a sparkly dress as outward show of being positive and the Ned was given to me so matter of fact by my onc whilst staring at computer screen while I thought she was looking up my neuropathy ... she has just said ur ct is clear... didn't think I heard right such massive news for me didn't seem so to my onc... I just wish you all the best ellsey your not on your own ... big hugs 🤗
Oh you made me smile, Shellygirl, with your sparkly dress and your underwhelmed onc. This would make a lovely cartoon 
Ellsey - all the best for tomorrow. The thing is to sing 'Climb every Mountain' and stand tall whatever.
I was rocking the dress lol... girls just got to have fun 😃
Thank you, I will be walking in there tomorrow looking good
Ellsey xx
You go girl !!! 👍🏻😃
Thank you Shellygirl, I know all the wonderful ladies understand.
Ellsey xx
Sending you best wishes I hope everything goes well for you☺
Thank you
Nothing like an oncology appointment for sending us into a major wobble I find. Brings back all the horror of diagnosis and adds an extra dose of anxiety. This week my CNS (who I haven't seen for a year) sat in on my onc meeting...I went into melt down thinking this must be bad news but she was just babysitting the registrar.
I hope your appointment goes well ... take care Lx
Thank you Lynda have to learn how to cope with these appointments as I know there will be many
Ellsey xx
Just want to wish you the best for Thursday, it is an anxious time no doubt about that but I really hope all will go well.
Thank you I know you have been through so much yourself, I need to be more positive today and get on with it.
Ellsey xx
Big hugs I was like that at the beginning of September had my CT scan then a week later had my bloods done got the results on the same day not to bad for waiting. I go back on the 6th December for my next results I'm am starting to think about it again, I suppose we will be like this and it will be normal for us to worry and feel sick hope all goes well keep positive take care.
Tess66
Xxx
Ah thanks Tess xx
Hi. You know I am in the same position as you. Will get scan result 16th Nov I try to forget but it crops up especially at 3am. Stay pos as much as possible. Best wishes
Dear Ellsey
As I always seem to be a day later than anyone else getting posts you have probably had your appt already. I hope it all went well. Thinking of you.
XXX
I hope your results were good and you feel settled again xo
Thanks Julie I hope you are doing well, not seen you post in a while.
Had a scan yesterday back with onc Wednesday night for results, but feeling very positive.
Hugs Ellsey xx
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