Hi there, my name is Mark and I am 51 years old. I've never smoked and rarely drink and I'm fit and healthy, except on 17th August I was diagnosed with OC.
I'm a positive person and have taken 3 shots of chemo prior to a proposed Ivor Lewis on 8th Jan in Southampton.
I've never been ill and don't handle sickness and illness, in anybody, including myself and people tell me that I'm very positive etc.
All this would be fine except I sit awake at nights (2.23am now) and I get very down. My long term girlfriend (now my wife) is so worried about me and losing what we have that I always put on a brave face but sometimes, like now, I feel incredibly sad and down. My prognosis is good and I feel lucky to be having the op soon but at times I'm very scared.
Bizarrely it's because I don't know anybody on this site that I have taken to writing something now. You all seem like such good people and I'm genuinely inspire by what I have read this evening/morning.
So even if one one replies, know that you all have already helped me!