So...i rang my doc in a pretty desperate state the other day. Things had gotten pretty bad. Dark. I was wishing i had the guts to sign myself out of life. Then wished i was in some kind of day to day accident, so they could do the job for me and finish me off. I was so on edge. I was sitting in McDonalds with my son yesterday, and a man stands up from a table roughly 2/3 metres away and my whole body mind panicked. i thought he was about to attack me. i jumped. my neck/head seemed to turn in slow motion towards him. My strange dreams have started again. as well as the anxiety/adrenaline i feel pumping throughout my limbs. My ocd has been unbearable. to the point where i think i may be sick. Its there when i open my eyes til the moment i close them. Still awaiting CBT therapy since my mental health assessment about 2 months ago. need this for my OCD and anxiety. but now the depression has crept in massively! my doc has increased me to the max on my sertraline (200mg) and is writing to a psychiatrist for me in the mean time.