Hello again. My GP rang today with wonderful news - my kidney (egfr) has gone from 32 to 39. Yipee! More bloods to be taken tomorrow, Friday, but I sincerely hope (and pray and cross everything I can) that it will continue to rise. If it falls again I will be gutted. It should be at about 100 so any increase is good. I have blocked out what will happen if it falls again but must admit I have been having very black, depressing, awful thoughts about what I would do if it decreases again. I tell myself that these thoughts are down to steroids but on the other hand I have had enough of taking pills, injecting etc. I am 50 not 95 and have had enough over the years. Anyway. All good but .... am not too sure if it is worth taking all these pills, injecting and still having to use a disability scooter because I 'conk' out. I look forward to you lovely people telling me to stop being stupid .... but... still. Enough is enough. I imagine many of you have had the same thoughts that I have (please say yes, otherwise I will really feel stupid and melodramatic).
Sorry for the bleak post.