Hi Lisa, I fully understand how you feel about your dear pet, Lucky. I lost my dear buddy "Sylvester" aka "Sly" 3 years ago. I was sure I could never replace him. Nor did I. But one day at the grocery store bulletin board, there was a picture of this lovely, long-haired, fluffy , gorgeous female cat with a note saying, "Could someone please adopt me, my family has to move and can't take me with them" I suddenly felt Divine Providence was speaking to me, here was a cat in need of love, and here was I, also in need of love, and having some to give, so I called the number, they brought her over to my home to meet her, and I was in love. There was no way I could tell these nice people that I didn't want her. I held her while they went home to get her things, food, litter box, toys and she was settled in my arms, on my lap when they got back. She has been here ever since. They called her "Cat". I named her "Bridget" . She holds my heart, and she adores me, and looks after me and knows when things are not quite as good as could be. She just needs to be wherever I am. Same chair. I have never forgotten Sly. His picture is framed and on the table with my family gallery, and I see him every day. I still treasure the moments he made me smile, he was a hugger. He wrapped his front paws around my neck and stayed a couple minutes and then was off about the house on his adventures of the day.
He was 15 and had kidney failure, my daughter-in-law is a Veterinarian, and she kept him hydrated with IVs into his back muscles, for several weeks, but he couldn't last like that.
Bridget has so enhanced my life, gives me so much joy and love, I again feel as if I could never have another cat if I loose her. But, you know, these precious little critters are also gifts to us, God's way of giving us a love to treasure, and we should not cheat ourselves by declining such a gift.
Remember the old quote: "It is better to have loved, and lost, than to have never loved at all" Oh so true! My best to you, Loretta