I felt strangely upset (?) that I was having a meeting on what stresses & impact my work was having on me and also not being in control of the meeting which in fairness was about me but trying to predict on something I dont know about yet.
Been a total wreck with my shoulders,elbows wrists and fingers kicking off with the fatigue, I am amazed actaully got to work some days but the meeting just sapped me of all my strength. I almost felt guilty that we were having a meeting about me on a really stupid busy day and all trying to look calm with me wanting to cry as I felt the loss of my career going away from me. Not had kids so my work has meant a lot to me but certainly not the way I wanted to feel at 54.
Yet I also felt guilty because they have been so good in trying to understand RA when I am stll trying to understand it myself and the consequences of what it might/might not do.
By the way does anyone get these fantastically hot moments like you r head and chest get to spontaneous combustion moments. Doc said not menopause as thro that but wow head sweats and Vit D issues I get but cannot believe how hot I feel some days.