Went in to work today ended up in floods of tears. That is so not me. I think that is the steroids seems to do my head in, To be honest have been down since diagnosis, Been seeing my GP who i have to say is very good i have no complaints there.
What is at the root of my( suppose ) depression is why me. Which i feel is very selfish of me or winning which ever is your point of view.
I think what has made me feel even worse is the fact i have failed on sulpha and hydroxy. I have been started on mtx which i did not want to take. This is because of my liver. I had hep b about 30 years ago Well cut along story sort consultant has done tests on my liver and spoken to a liver man he has ok it. My consultant has even arranged for me to have an ultra sound on my liver.
Well i took the mtx were my stomach should be felt like a brick. Stomach acid burnt my throat intestines felt dreadful. I phone the rheumy well tx said what had happen to be told i would be changed to injec mtx the rheumy nurse said she would post the script. This is were the fun starts !! I now have to travel 30 miles then park the car which is no mean feat to be shown how to do injections.( why can't my GP show me all hell broke lose when i asked)
Well can say the floods of tears has given me two weeks of work full pay on the say so off my boss. Think he thinks that i will be well when i go back!. I did try to point out that rheumy takes time to sort us out thats assuming that the change of meds will do the trick.
As for the depression i am taking mirtazapine which me thinks is so not working. I hope that this journey i am on will at least improve a bit pleaseeeeeeee
Very sorry to be a moaning old woman i will try to pull myself together. And look on the brighter side of life. thank you for reading xx