Frustration!!

I am sick ...hardly can get any air up my lungs and still can't stop myself...Am I that stupid?! Looking for tips to take the first step for the 40th time...I don't want to be a smoker, I've tried over and over to quit and always return to the smokes...any tips are welcome

[nsd_user663_63998]

Oh mmaya – I sure wish there was a magic pill that would make it all better, but there isn't – sorry darling!!!! Regardless of what anyone says it does take a bit of willpower to resist the cravings I have done my share and I know it's hard, but it can be done. You have to be willing to just bite those urges in the butt, not give in and then it will get better - I promise!!!!

I know you've heard that a gazillion times, but sometimes you have to take that leap of faith and really, really, really believe in it!!! Unfortunately your the only one that can do this – we can't do it for you, although I wish we could. We can offer our support and friendship, but you need to realize that it ultimately comes from within - just never stop believing ..... and never stop trying!!

I Honestly believe in this and one day you'll see it is possible , and you will fly…. really!!! Just keep trying!!!!

[Canwes 1000 Days Smoke Free]

mmaya, not smoking never killed anyone the reverse can not be said. Now that we're clear on that, stop while you still have a choice. It's actually a case of 'your life depends on it'.

I really don't want to sound harsh but this is the reality. It's your call, I'm hoping we'll hear/read about your daily struggles right here on this forum. DO IT!!!! It's for your own good.

[Hercu Valued Contributor]

Mmaya.......I feel your pain and frustration.....No matter what anyone says quitting is one of the most difficult things to do.....

Reasons being that tobacco companies are allowed to make cigarettes so much more addictive than they should be ....nicotine invade your brain and make you believe the only way to live is to have that daily fix....although we know we are killing ourselves.....

Maybe I was lucky to visualize myself with a oxygen tank doing my favourite sport....and made the decision to quit and break this enslavement for good and take control of my life ...It was not a walk in the park but could be done (I was addicted for 38 years) .....with lots of support from this forum and the want to be free...!!!

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It really is the hardest thing to do. However, and I don't want to sound harsh, it really is up to you. No-one can take away the urges but I promise they do decrease. You have to be determined, though, because it really hurts when you are denying what your body says it needs. You don't need it.

So, perhaps it is time to decide whether you actually want to quit. - and are prepared for everything nicotine withdrawal will throw at you - or whether you are going into it half-heartedly. You need to feel enthusiastic about achieving a life without cigarettes and feel pride as you move towards that aim. There is no doubt about the fact that you can do it - but it takes enormous willpower, which you have to dig really deep to find.

You're not on your own - we're all on the same journey towards better health and wealth - and all going through the same ups and downs, highs and lows.

[GrahamA 3 Years Smoke Free]

Have you tried Champix? There are no real cravings once you quit, just psychological ones.

[Hercu Valued Contributor in reply to GrahamA]

Very good advice Graham......Just a pity some people and Champix is a dangerous combination.....

Champix worked for me and as you said the cravings was mild but the psychological and mental issues was fierce...

and had the whole withdrawal thing over again coming of the Champix... But I am free !!!!!

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Yes Graham, I tried the Champix a few years ago but I couldnt take it anymore because I was getting really sick all the time with it...it did work, kept me away from the nic for almost 3 months, I tried the gum, the patches, cold turkey...I used to be able to just say: right I'm not smoking for the next week and do it, but cant do it anymore.

I tried to stop yesterday and this morning smoked again! It's really frustrating. ...and yes, I do NOT want to be a smoker, I do not want to smoke...just cant get my head in the right place...

I was reading the posts yesterday and there seems to be lot of people (some of them I know well) that are doing great, I always thought of myself as very strong and able to do what I want...but I just can't crack this one...by far the biggest regret in my life, that stupid day that I went back on the smokes.

I have no doubt I will stop eventually ...I hate the smell, the taste, I hate coming out on the rain to have a cigarette, I feel like a junkie. I'm not being able to get myself together and that's really annoying me right now.

[GrahamA 3 Years Smoke Free]

Some people do get a reaction to Champix that way, sadly, as Hercu says. Have you tried cutting down rather than stopping completely, at least until you decide on a method? (That suggestion will probably get me rebuked!).

What caused you to start again after three months last time?

I find that on past quits when I've given in, the sooner after this happens I stop again the easier it is.

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lost control over it completely...went into a very dark place, I did have a lot going on at the time, but saying that I am not one bit proud of failing but i am very proud of keep trying...i didnt surrender easy, I kept going on and on....and by June before I even noticed I was smoking twice as much as before stopping.

I had an appointment with the GP this morning and got the champix again, got a supply for 1 month. I am going for lung cancer screening tomorrow, my health is getting very poor, Im booked in the morning for bloods and then Im going straight onto the xrays and so on until they rule out anything major.

[Hercu Valued Contributor]

Mmaya...For the first time in three months I am speechless...... and cant give any advice others than to follow Graham's advice.... Start to recognise the triggers and work your way around them.(Now I might get rebuked !) because I believed there is no way around but through........

[Incy_Wincy]

Warning: Rambly possibly incoherently tired post ahoy!

Hi mmaya, good to see you again But sorry you're so frustrated. You've heard it all before, I know...but my biggest weapon back in March (apart from my relentless optimism and bounciness!) was this forum. Every time I even thought about giving in to the demon, I came here, posted something or read something, and rode it out. You say you have no doubt you'll stop eventually...so we just need to work out how to bring 'eventually' closer to 'now' and then you're done Tadaaaaa! Flippancy aside, I totally remember saying exactly that sentence 'I know I'll stop eventually' and I have NO idea what tipped 'eventually' over to 'now'. I'm just glad it did. And I'm crossing my fingers big time that your tipping point is here now, too. Keep fighting friend! xxx

[Hidden in reply to Incy_Wincy]

I know Incy...Im so proud of you and so happy you are still here. Im starting the champix tomorrow after some bloods and let it roll again :)) I didnt read the papers yet but if I well remember from the last time, im supposed to set a date to quit abt 1 week after starting the tablets...I will keep posting

[nsd_user663_63724 in reply to Incy_Wincy]

Still love your optimism incy!!! So chuffed yr still here n still strong! Xxx

[Incy_Wincy in reply to Incy_Wincy]

Ah, bless you alleycat Glad you and mmaya are in it together xx

[GrahamA 3 Years Smoke Free]

Don't feel bad about breaking quits. I've done it 5 times. I hope your results come out fine, I'm sure they will.

[Hercu Valued Contributor]

Mmaya.... Hope your results is coming out fine.

Glad you are giving the Champix another go and sure it will help you.

The breaking of the quit is not the end of the world but a lesson for next time .....

Stay strong and I am sure you will be healthy soon !!

(You are in my prayers)

[nsd_user663_63724]

Hey stranger!! So sorry to hear you're not feeling great but fingers crossed the champix suits you better this time! I'm back on the patches again...gutted but I forgot NOPE!! We CAN do this!!! Xxx

[Hidden in reply to nsd_user663_63724]

Hey how's that going? Have you started crawling up the walls yet? Keep posting, you know that's the only way forward...stay strong xx

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No...you did not!!! always thought you were Solid! Well buddy we'll help each other along... Give me a few days for the champix start working... Nite nite!