I shouldn't be posting here...

[Levs]

... Because last June I picked up a cigarette and chose to smoke. 3 years and 8 moths quit and I decided to smoke again. It's that simple really, there's no excuse, my dog didn't eat my homework, I didn't face a huge stress, I had a row on holiday with my husband and I chose to have a Smoke to make myself feel better. I started with 2-3 a day and convinced myself that was ok. It crept up to 4-5 a day and that too was fine. The last month I've noticed I'm not counting and whereas I 'perceived' I didn't 'need' one before I am starting to find I do now. (In reality we all know I did 'need' it from that first one back) I am an addict, there isn't just one.

Slowly I have felt the shift from me controlling it to it controlling me. Not willing to go there again. So I quit. 5 days clear now. I shall take myself back to day 5 now, I just. Wanted to post in here to say don't get cocky, there isn't just one. It's a myth.

[nsd_user663_59644]

Oh my dear person, just goes to show how easy it is to just have one. But so pleased your back and starting again .

Great your here and good luck

[Incy_Wincy]

Levs that's a great cautionary tale. Good for you getting back on the horse, wishing you all the best x

[nsd_user663_40832]

I'm gutted for you Levs reading that. Just shows NOPE the only way.

I'm nearly 6 months in but I know, 1 sneaky fag and I will be back to 20 a day in no time.

Best wishes and and more than most you know you are doing the right thing to get back in to it.

[Levs 1000 Days Smoke Free]

It's very easy to slip back to old habits. The one thing I've found is when I said stop and meant it I've stopped. I'm craving a bit but it's my too bad because I know I'm stronger than the nicodemon, when I choose to be.

If you haven't already been pointed towards them then I strongly suggest taking a look at the tales from the quit. The most home hitting one for me is 'Choose your pain'