End of second week. How I know I won.

[nsd_user663_63864]

Hi everybody! Be great and strong! This was my second week, probably worst than the first. On day eight I got the news that my mother's cancer has relapsed three years after her last chemo. It was hard on my quit, but still not crazy hard since I thought to myself that I didnt want to play with cancer having the genes etc. On day ten, me and my mother visited the surgeon and by the end of that visit I just wanted to stick a cigarette in my mouth. It was a spell. The whole thing lasted for about six or seven minutes and totally exhausted me...it was hell. An hour later than that crisis I had a second craving, a bit milder probably because I was not alone at that time. Anyway, that day passed and I felt so empowered by having won those two cravings. The day after I was again a bit foggy as in the first week but nothing too bad. On day twelve, that is yesterday, after again a visit at the doctor, I went like a zombie, and bought cigarettes. I stuck one in my mouth, lit it, felt I was stronger than to inhale that puff, felt it was my enemy...my personal enemy, felt I could do so much better than that and put it off not having inhaled a bit. Threw away the packet. Today day 13 it was my first day without any serious cravings or desires or the constant thought. As me and my mother were driving back from yet one more hospital visit, I asked her how she felt about me stopping smoking. Her answer made me an ex smoker forever. Be strong.

[nsd_user663_63277]

Well done antonis. At a time of a trigger you have learnt not to give in to the craves and ride them until they go, because as you have shown they do go and things do get better

[nsd_user663_59644]

So saddened to read this, life is so very hard some times, and I do hope you will find the strength to deal with thus situation, I will cross every thing you mum gets good news soon.

Your doing amazingly well, I do hope your so proud, doing great

[nsd_user663_58050]

Well done for not succumbing and throwing the pack away. There are going to be challenges ahead, and hopefully you can remember how resolved you were on day 12 and not smoking.

I'm sorry to hear about your mother. My father died from a smoking-related condition at Christmas - blocking of the arteries with resultant heart failure. That's one of my main drivers for quitting. My mother is very pleased I'm not smoking, and I think my father would be as well.

[Incy_Wincy]

Really really well done, Antonis! I'm so glad you managed to throw that pack away.

I am sorry to hear about your mother. I lost my dad not long ago, to cancer. His struggle really helped me to be strong in my quit, and I think you can do it too. Be strong Antonis! x

[nsd_user663_63114]

Well done on not consuming those cigarettes after the couple of horrid days. Hope you get some news on how you and your mother can move forward x

[nsd_user663_63741]

So sorry to hear about your mum but very well done for staying strong