Panic!

[nsd_user663_61454]

Ok so I'm 2 days 18hrs in and omg I'm having a bad day so far!

I was so positive last night and this morning! Last night I had a bottle of wine, didn't even bother me that I had a few minor craving for an odd puff but my chewing gum seemed to help me through and I didn't really struggle.

This morning I woke thinking I can do this! If I had wine last night and didn't bother me too much not smoking then hell yeah let's do this! BUT it's just been one thing after another this morning! Major stressful family issues mixed in with two children kicking up a fuss to now result in me having to totally bleach down the bathroom = cigarette time please?!

I'm dressed and ready to go buy a pack but as yet have not! Where I am located I can only buy packs of 20 and I am exempt from paying tax on them so at an appealing €4.00 per pack I'm really really debating why I've not bought any yet!

My hubster is trying to stop too but he has caved in and gone back to real fags, he is away with work at the moment and I know is stressed but it's also thrown me and now I'm thinking I want to smoke.

When are these cravings gunna die?

[nsd_user663_54332]

OK breathe hun

I'm sorry you're having a c**p morning, it's always at the wrong time too but ask yourself this:

What will having a fag change?

Will it make anything better?

It won't - but you have got through without a fag and if you stay off them you'll prove to yourself that you don't need a stick of dried leaves to exist!!

Get angry instead - you're stressed and right now this addiction is taking your mind over!! How dare it?

Hang in there, believe me if I can do it, you can!!

I'll tell you something a mo

The night before I quit my mum fell over and banged her head hard, she bled a lot 'cos scalp injuries always do and oyu know what really annoyed me? All I could think about was having a fag - now is that any way to live?

[nsd_user663_61454]

I'm trying to be stubborn and not give into buying a pack!

I don't want to have to think constantly about when I can have my next smoke and I suppose the only way to get to that point is to go through this hellish phase.

I just popped outside for a puff of my ecig. There was some dock ends in the ashtray still. I gave one a sniff and physically gagged, I feel sick after that now!

Curse you cravings! I hate you! **politely worded** haha

[nsd_user663_54332]

I'm trying to be stubborn and not give into buying a pack!

I don't want to have to think constantly about when I can have my next smoke and I suppose the only way to get to that point is to go through this hellish phase.

I just popped outside for a puff of my ecig. There was some dock ends in the ashtray still. I gave one a sniff and physically gagged, I feel sick after that now!

Curse you cravings! I hate you! **politely worded** haha

That's the spirit hun

You only have to go through these first days once, it gets rough as you found out, but then you're free - forever!!

When you smoke you're always thinking about the next cigarette - which you only need because of the last one - and what's the point? To feel normal, the same as a non-smoker does!!

Anyway people are loads calmer as non-smokers so when the poo phase is over you'll feel heaps better!!

And heck yes!! Maybe keep some of those fag ends in a jar because they are disgusting :eek:

I've got the ice cream tub I used in my smoking bit in the garden and the ashtray pouch I used to use and sniffing that *vomiting smiley*

[nsd_user663_61447]

As the others are saying hun, grit your teeth and take a deep breath. It'll pass and you'll be so glad you didn't cave in.

Day 1 was easy for me too, but toward the evening of day 2 I was twitchy, grumpy and seriously debating getting a pack of devil sticks. I stood strong until it happened again on day 3, and you know what? It made a fatal mistake. I burst into tears at my boss of all people, and when that craving passed I was so angry that it made me feel that way! And that anger is doing the job all the medical advice in the world could never do, it's making me want to kick the living s**t out of it!

The thing to remember is that you are stronger and braver than those cravings could ever hope to be. xx