I have just smoked my last cigarette. I watched myself smoke in the mirror and smoked it all the way down to the butt to make sure the smoke was good and hot and burned the back of my throat. Then I threw out the tobacco and filters and ran the cigarette papers through water before I turfed those out as well.
I smoked my first cigarette wen I was 11. I am 48. The last few years I have felt my health deteriorate and my anger rising - not only for picking this digusting habit up in the first place - but for letting it go on so long.
I have tried patches, gum, hypnotherapy and pills - you name it - I've tried it. This time it's cold turkey - no more pissing about with 'cessation crutches' which only prolong the withdrawal. The kicker this time is finding out I have periodontal disease and feel movement in some teeth..... Getting this attended to will run into thousands of dollars and I am absolutely livid with myself for ending up in this mess!
I quit for three months a few years ago and the strongest recollection I had was no longer being able to relate to my former smoking self - she seemed like someone I knew a long time ago that I no longer see - and didn't really miss.... I want to feel that way again - it was so empowering!
I would also write to Phillip Morris and send photos of all the things I bought for myself using money that would otherwise have been spent on cigarettes - they never did reply to any of my emails :). Very therapeutic indeed!
I have been lucky to avoid any serious smoking related illness to date - but understand the odds are stacking up against me. My reason for quitting is simple - I want to live.