Wow day 3 and i feel good!

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Good morning everyone. I woke up this morning and i felt absolutely fantastic. I felt confident, strong & rejuvenated!!! Like i had acheived something.

Last night after my last post i looked at the site why quit. I saw some really horrible things, some lungs that probably resemble mine at the moment. I thought to myself how could i have been doing this to myself all this time? All the information was there before me but i chose to ignore it, ignorant to what smoking can really cause.

I think that is why i felt so good this morning because the penny has finally dropped.......its only taken 4 attempts. I'm stronger and i will face this addiction head on.....i'm ready to go in the ring with that demon because i know i will win. I'm not breathless anymore, i can smell & taste just as much as the non smokers that i envied.....its the all new me, kim, i luv me!!!!!

I had my dr's appt this morning too. I think i told her more than she told me but hey i'm going to have regular weekly appts with the nurse & because of my worries of the pain in my shoulder (i'm convinced its my lung) i have to have a chest xray. I will let you know the outcome. When i came out the surgery ive got news of some very difficult family problems thats happenin right now with my mum and sister, ive cried 3 times already but reaching for a cig is the last thing on my mind....i'm very proud of myself😄

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Oh that's so lovely to see!!

Well done for getting through a horrible time last night hun - it's going to get lots and lots easier

The demon has got weaker, and the longer your nicotine-free the more he dies

And you're getting the good things from quitting we all like

Keep going xxx

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Thanks so much its really helping.

And ive fount that funnily enough i'm not stressing as much as i did before. God knows i was like a mad woman in the mornings shouting at my kids left right & centre but now i feel like a weight has been lifted of my shoulders....strange but good :)))))

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Thanks so much its really helping.

And ive fount that funnily enough i'm not stressing as much as i did before. God knows i was like a mad woman in the mornings shouting at my kids left right & centre but now i feel like a weight has been lifted of my shoulders....strange but good :)))))

You'll find that definitely

Yet another fab thing about quitting the nasty sticks (my mum's name for mine lol) is that you're way less stressed. Always thought smoking calmed me down and thought I'd be like a mad thing without them but nope I'm nicer to people and long drives with my dad are row-free even when he sends me the wrong way as usual

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Thanks Gemma. Yes its very weird i thought i'd be tearing my hair out! But i'm not rushing to finish things at work, at home or being with my kids to rush out & have a cig. Theres nothing waiting for me so i'm putting everything into what i'm doing, quality & concentration, hence i dont need to stress because i'm dealing with certain situations head on 👍👍👍👍

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Thanks Gemma. Yes its very weird i thought i'd be tearing my hair out! But i'm not rushing to finish things at work, at home or being with my kids to rush out & have a cig. Theres nothing waiting for me so i'm putting everything into what i'm doing, quality & concentration, hence i dont need to stress because i'm dealing with certain situations head on 👍👍👍👍

It really is great isn't it?

Know exactly what you mean about wanting to rush stuff so you could dive out for one - what a state it gets us into :/

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Well done LadyK!

You should be very proud. All these positive feelings will help a great deal, so keep up the good vibes! x

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What Allen Carr book shall i get? Or will any do? Was just reading about him, omg!!! I cant believe it......in the end he was a victim of smoking....such a shame x

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What Allen Carr book shall i get? Or will any do? Was just reading about him, omg!!! I cant believe it......in the end he was a victim of smoking....such a shame x

I'd start off with Easyway, it's only short but it deals with all the rubbish we've been feeding ourselves about smoking!! It definitely changed my mind when I was wavering It's meant to be read while you still smoke but it works fine when you don't!!

The "Stop smoking permanently" one is a lot longer, and TBH I haven't read much of it, maybe get that if you need an extra push?

It is really sad what happened to him

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Gosh you're positive today, well done you

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Omg a rollercoaster ride!!!!

Ive had such a strange day.

I cried before i went to work (family issues), get to work not the usual routine so not very busy. Got a phone call from my sons school he's been fighting, meeting with school on monday morning. Cried another 2 times to my line manager, who was supportive and gave me some information on inner peace/god/preying etc. i will look into that because i need to find some!

My thoughts of smoking are worse at night it seems. I was great this morning and all day but now, hmmmm some stupid things are entering my head, doubts. After all ive seen on the internet about smokers lungs & other stuff why would i even want to miss a stupid fag!?! But i do of an evening because it was part of my life for so long, change i suppose.

Well i'm going to watch a film with my son and then maybe paint my nails.

I may be back for some support later x

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Lady

Yep Rollercoaster is what is right enough. You're doing one my love

You've almost passed what IMO is the worst few days, so it will get easier, promise.

Fi x