After putting up with mopey sad me it's time for some positivity
(loving being able to use more smilies btw!!)
Today is 20 weeks since the smoke tinted glasses fell off. Well in about an hour or so anyway. Before that I was happy to smoke for the rest of my life, drowning in denial about the cost, smell, my health and so on. Tuesday is 20 weeks since I stopped being stinky me and became fresh smelling me, how good is that?
Anyway I got my shock - nothing to do with health (never thought about that really - young and stupid :o) just realising how foul smoking smelled, tasted and therefore made me smell. Up to that point I was certain that you could only smell smoke on me when I'd just put one out - err yeah Spent the next 2 and a bit days hating that I smoked, more than that hating that I *had* to smoke, no choice, no "because I like it" or any of that - smoke or be a growly grumpy b**ch, end of. Not for the first time it made me cry (yeah I'm soppy like that) and thanks to the lovely girl I share an office with brought forward my plan to quit from "New Year or NSD" to tomorrow. Good really 'cos if she hadn't I'd probably have deicded it's too hard and still be stinky Gem.
But the positive stuff 'cos it's flipping time for it.
Since 11/12/12 I:
*have not* smoked - not even a little puff.
*will not* smoke again - ever.
Hardly crave a cigarette any more. (e-cig yes, real cig no)
Can't remember what cigarettes taste like
Can't remember what smoking feels like
Don't want to remember the above
Am in the second longest quit of my life, which will be the last one I have to do.
Have saved £1,100, not smoked 2,749 fags, extended my life by 11 days, 10 hours and 54 minutes. All by not doing something!!
I feel fitter, healthier, can taste and smell properly, have lost the cough I "didn't have" before and look younger!!
Am loving it. Used to be paranoid about smelling and used a lot of sprays and hand gel to "not smell" which while i thought it worked, smelling smokers who do the same thing has convinced me otherwise. Not always having to have gum in my mouth to cover up my fagbreath is fab too, and the amount of extra stuff I used to lug about for my habit? Stupid!! Lighters, spare lighters, ashtrays, fags blah blah. Don't have to bother now YAY :cool: it really is liberating!!
But this is not an easy quit for me, last one was relatively but stupid me blew that and am still stuck on the e-cig - not beating myself up about that though 'cos I don't smoke which is the important thing.
So to get off that I'm going to stop using it indoors at work - apparently I use it more than I think so will go outside when I need it, and up to my room or something at home - when I'm out and about I'll join the smokers in Leper's Corner. Having to get off my bum and go out will stop me using it so much, or that's the plan. It should wean me off it anyway!!
It worked last night, was out with the girls from work and the one time I needed some e-cig went out with the smokers when they had their umpteenth smoke of the night - and I used to smoke that much, eepers :eek:
Then when I feel ready will load up on full strength patches, gum, Extra and a new Tangle and go for gold this time Like a sequel to my original quit in a way!!
Huge thank you to everyone on here for helping me - definitely couldn't have done it without you guys - you're lifesavers!!